this is me.

2009-04-21T20:42:00.004+08:00

the wonders of 6 hrs.

BEFORE

AFTER

now's the time to conquer mantou. im smelling HOLIDAYS (:

2009-02-25T12:02:00.003+08:00

it's been long since i post anything up and many stuff has been happening!! (:

first up, i would like to say that i really LOVE generseis! hahaha. dance had really nvr been so fun without them. although, we didnt get to win HO dance competition this year, but we know that we've put in lots of effort and everyone has been putting alot of work in it. my thanks goes out to boon and max for choreographing it, and teaching us all the techniques! darras my partner, whom i finally managed to jump onto him succesfully during the actual performance for the partner part! haha (although subsequent practice after IH, it became cui again. lol) and all the girls whom I go crazy with (: esp peiqian, my beloved neighbour too, whom I laughed like mad with her these few nights, which drew the -.- looks from the guys. HOHOHO

there's still night cycling!! love the rush of cycling down the road and overtaking people! hahaha. and there's a pretty sunrise at ecp to welcome us (:

2009-02-16T22:09:00.003+08:00

when i thought that im gonna be slightly free after chionging HW111 assignment and HP203 group report 1, i realized that im not gonna be free at all.

here's why:

17 Feb: Full Dress Rehearsal for HO Closing
18 Feb: HW111 group meeting + Dance Practice
19 Feb: HO CLosing
20 Feb: Night Cycling
22, 25, 27, 28 Feb: Cultural Night Rehearsal
1 Mar: Cultural Night
2 Mar: HW111 presentation + HP203 quiz
3 Mar: HP202 quiz
5 Mar: HP200 quiz
6 Mar: Props moving for Hexis
7 Mar: Hexis Rehearsal
8 Mar: Hexis
11 Mar: HP202 presentation

i want 30 hours a day now!! ><

2009-02-14T23:29:00.002+08:00

XXX: V-Day = SAD = Singles Awareness Day

ROFL.

btw, forgot to talk abt foc photoshoot that day. hahaha i love my fellow gls cause we're the most sui bian grp of gls, most last-minute bunch, most crazy bunch (who eat chicken biscuits in the library)! and it's funny how they said their mission for this year's foc is to help me find a guy! hahahaha. x)

2009-02-14T00:00:00.002+08:00

happy valentine's!

sadly, my vday is gonna be spent in hall rushing through hp203 assignment and spending time practising with the dancers. lol

after monday i'll be (slightly) free! at least one quiz is down but listening is damn diff. most of the time i dont know what they're talking abt >< at least it's DOWN.

fri the 13th wasnt a good day for me. being damn tired (since i've been sleeping at 2/3am plus the previous nights and waking up early in the morning), and energy all gone towards studying the countless vocabs for korean, i felt terribly bad during 203grp meeting today =/ sighh.. sorry guys >< i'll figure out how to do spss now....

*yawn*

have a great weekend everyone!

2009-02-07T20:23:00.003+08:00

this is matthew, not his real name cause i dont know how to pronounce and write his name, and he's been sleeping with me for the past few days x) hahaha. sadly, i gotta return him soon to his owner. apparently, his owner seems to be getting insomia without him. lol

hall stuff is making me go crazy. assignments are further driving me crazy. i wish that ahemhallofficeahem wouldnt be so _____. i hope SAO will approve and give us budget for dance costumes cause they really cost a bomb. =/ i wish there is a choice that we can choose of not to buy a certain shirt. >< i wish that hp202 stops teaching 2 chapters in one lecture. i hope that i will survive till 2 weeks later...

2009-01-26T00:36:00.003+08:00

HAPPY MOO YEAR EVERYONE ((:

and i just realized this's my 100th post (i still kept my previous link somewhere) hahaha,

ANW, hopefully this year would be great and smooth-sailing for me. cliche but it's the best wish one could ever make cause it's coves all aspects. HAHA

btw, found this great musician Yiruma. he's a korean composer/pianist and EVERY piano composition that i've heard over youtube by him was fantastic! his piano score is pretty easy to find on the net too. hehex. so that means i've got 20+ new pieces to practise next week! yes, i gotta print them in school and wait for the weekend to be back with my piano...

eileen came over with roomie last friday (while i was springcleaning)! haha and she drew this pretty drawing to decorate our door. shall take a photo when im back. thanks eileen! (:

first time in a few years that im gonna be visiting my paternal relatives for cny tmr. usually i just meet them at reunion dinner that's way before cny. and now i gotta travel all the way to bishan... sad that grace isnt with us celebrating this year. but im sure she'll have a great time in U.S too (: hopefully next year this time im over there too. hahaha

cny starts.. and duedates for assignments are getting nearer too! ugh.

[EDIT: btw, if anyone's reading this and is free, please go to http://scbeslurpz.blogspot.com between 27jan and 1feb and vote for male nominee #6. XP]

2009-01-13T00:05:00.000+08:00

i cant believe that i indirectly sabo-ed myself. -.-

2009-01-03T20:45:00.003+08:00

im supp to be doing the cultural night stuff now with rachael... haha but we're both slacking right now. photoshoot today is pretty fun since it's almost like playing on top of ADM.

last night went out with the piano ensemble people (: it's great to meet them up again, although it really feels sian to be the one starting school so much earlier than them. it's like since most of them are from nus and school's start next week for them. HAHA

but ytd when i was talking to chuling, i realized why we dread 2009 so much. besides the many years of education that has us starting semester 2 in the middle of the year that cause us to feel weird that uni sem 2 starts at the beginning of the year, i think the main reason why we all dread 2009 is cause a big TWO is gonna appear in the tenth digit of our age. and i personally feel twenty is neither a teen nor an adult. it's in between nowhere. blehhh

talking to mr seow last night has also made me decide on possibly which music modules im aiming and hoping to take. hahaha.

im so damn sian nowwwww

2009-01-03T12:14:00.003+08:00

oh great. 1st day in hall in 2009 and i discovered that my towel is missing and the ants invasion comes back again. ntu has weird ants who go for unopened maggi mee packets, files?!, textbook, thermo flask instead of my pi pa gao. -.-

2009-01-02T15:41:00.001+08:00

I DIDNT GET MY KOREAN CLASSSSSSSSSSSSSSS TTTT.TTTTTTTTT

hopefully people will drop it during add/drop period. *prays hard*

2009-01-02T12:34:00.002+08:00

the last day of 2008 doesnt feel like it's the last day of 2008 and it still doesnt really feel like 2009 now! and it doesnt feel that cny is in 20+ days! oh my... but at least ended my 2008 on a high note! hahaha went kboxing with syl, sean, rachel and her lil bro and ended up watching fireworks with sean. (:

school's starting in 3 days time and i havent print my lecture notes and i need to start packing for hall soon and there's photoshoot for the next 2 days. i've a feeling i'll be stuck in hall from tmr till friday alr. plus ntu system is screwed. we're supp to know our electives by today but the results aint out now! i just know that i didnt get the music module i want.. which left me fighting for the korean slot (im hoping im not among the 14 people who didnt get that particular slot, though the probablity of me getting it is higher than others who're fighting for other slots). then for the bio slot.. hahahaha no way im getting it cause vacancy is 1 and there's 1935 on waiting list. LOL but nvm, everything leaves to add/drop period. and i just found out that i only have 1 lecture on monday since there's no tutorials yet in the 1st week. YAY!

anw, supp to have elaborated on what i did during that celebration week but now starting to feel lazy as usual. but it's basically a nice gathering with huishan and ambihaa in the noon and a midnight movie with SWANY and a stayover at nic's. her dog is DAMN CUTE. at least it didnt chase yeechian around the house unlike the previous dog HAHAHA. 19th marks the first time i watch 2 movies in a day and watching the same movie twice too. lol then 23rd had xmas carolling as part of hall canvassing which is pretty fun too. (: okay lar.. basically that's it. more of a reminder to my memory for my ownself.

reflections i guess there's nothing much cause 2008 is like... fun only in the later part of the year. lol. and i seriously need to start packing for hall now! ><

2008-12-28T22:11:00.003+08:00

this whole week has been filled with alot of celebrations and partly due to christmas, the festive feel was up and going. will elaborate more next time. hahaha

anw, results are gonna be out in less than 2 hrs time.. but my mum wants me to sleep in less than an hour time (since my panda eyes has been on and going for quite some time AND i've been stuck at the com the whole day today reading up the ebook i just downloaded). i guess it's a good choice too... later i cant get to sleep after knowing my results. HAH. goodluck to me =S

2008-12-20T13:58:00.002+08:00

watched this last night!

haha thanks to yuhsiu for treating me to this concert! although im not a fan of theirs, and i never ever listen to their music (except their duets with SHE), and they went offkey pretty often, but last night was pretty enjoyable. (: at least they make it worthwhile to catch aaron yan and jiro wang in action. lol

monday's gonna be darts ihg. though im not playing for hall6, but hopefully in spirit, i'll be able to send them some birthday luck. hahaha. jiayou hall 6!

2008-12-13T14:12:00.003+08:00

one whole week in hall during hols make me realize how much i missed home! have been pretty busy these days and i expect this is going to continue until next sem! it feels good to see how hall 6 have thrashed other halls in ytd's games of tennis, basketball (female and male). (:

celebrated nic's and swee's birthday this week! cause that lousy swee is going overseas during that period so had an advanced celebration for her this year! and lousy pok nic went to spoil her own surprise. hahaha

i dont understand why all the new nice songs all come out at the same time. it's the peak season for dl now! lol

2008-12-09T00:27:00.002+08:00

my favourite past time in hall, i guess it's doing room-work. it's like doing housework. cleaning the room, mopping it, wiping every single speck of dust you can see. haha. and i find it therapeutic, and refreshing after cleaning the room. also, laundry has seem so easy suddenly, dumping every clothes into the washing machine and just wait for an hr and just hang it after that.

spring cleaning of the room has been utterly satisfying. lol. finally we cleaned the dirty fan and we kinda shift the furnitures around. wanted to join two tables tgt but the stupid wire behind the table prevented us from doing that. darn.

i need to teach tuition desperately! i realize there's a lot of stuff i want to buy, and i wanna go overseas! so much that me chian and yuhsiu are now discussing our plan to taiwan which will happen (hopefully) 6 months later. and given that i've been spending so much on meals these days on every single outing... swensons, manhattan fish market, secret recipe, ajisen etc.... i need to earn to spend! anyone with lobang tell me! hahaha

wanted to give nic a surprise today by turning up at her place today. but that stupid girl leaves her house so early (told her to meet at 230pm but at 1230, she msged us to ask her if we wanna join her for lunch at newton). at that point of time, almost everyone is alr at KOVAN mrt. -.- oh well... happy birthday nic (:

2008-12-02T15:03:00.003+08:00

this is what happens if you have to plan your timetable on stars and helping your friend plan hers, fight with 85 other people at 130 sharp, and having lunch at the same time...

and stars is really damn irritating, cause one second there's lots of vacancies left. the next second, no vacancies left. grrr. in the end, im still gonna be seperated with the rest for classes T.T at least im with sylvia for all cores and 2 classes are with rachel, kailing, kaixuan. (: to think this is gonna be going on and on for the next 6 more sems... T.T

2008-12-02T01:06:00.003+08:00

back from sentosa! (: og outing was a flop, cause only me, elizabeth, jackson, li-chung and sean turned up. out of 20 plus people. haha. but it's a pity to those who didnt go, cause it's such a nice weather today to hang out at the beach! got abit of tan without getting sunburnt! yay!

and i wonder why young people these days look extremely matured. it's like we played captain's ball with this other group of people. if you tell me that they just graduated from jc or ended their uni exams, i would definitely believe (and so do the other 4). but after our liasing officer mr jackson teh talked to them, i realize im like pretty old (even if im the youngest among the 5 of us). the group is like just freshly out of sec sch, but they definitely dont look like they are.

in conclusion, we're just getting old. sigh

had dinner at manhattan's with the og, with kaiyan, bobby and john joining us. li-chung is damn gossipy yesterday, today and tomorrow [i.e everyday]. all the og mates' gossip all comes from him. haha. but the top joke is when we went home. condoms for XXX's christmas present. HAHAHA. and XXX still said it so loud in the train. im sorry if i have sick friends in my og. lol

sentosa again this sunday with s14. and i expect another sentosa outing when veron's back from hk. lol

2008-11-24T23:14:00.004+08:00

call me a drama fanatic. muahaha. finally just finished watching 篮球火 in 3 days. (: my bro said the ending sucks though, and i kinda think the same way too.. but... it's pretty balanced in it's exciting, funny and sad moments. and esp all those basketball stunts. one word, 帅! and yup, i still dont think that wu zhun is that handsome. lol

kbox with the psych people tmr. we're gonna sing the house down. muahahaha (:

and talking abt singing, it reminds me of this song i chanced upon, which i think the some part of the lyrics kinda reflect my thoughts, esp, telling me to be strong.

梦飞船 - 不值得
除了想你除了爱你
我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记整理心情
我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心
无力继续
这感情不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_UIF2Corhhg

disclaimer: in any case that the above of me posting the lyrics causes any controversy, i have only a piece of advice. open your heart and just enjoy this beautiful song. xP also, the video isnt by the original singers but a rendition of it. not because i cant find the original, but i love the harmonizing of this rendition (:

yanqin is trying to be strong, even if she knows, she wasted last two years in her social circle.

2008-11-24T14:11:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel like i failed in dealing erikson's theory stage 5.

2008-11-23T16:49:00.003+08:00

eww. course registering starts again. hopefully will get into the same tutorial class as the rest. like what sylvia said, we dont want to be in some ulu pandan class again. lol. and i need to hurry up freakingly think of one more elective i want to take.

been watching hotshot ever since exams ended. (: the reason why i love taiwanese idol dramas is cause the guys are usually damn hot and shuai in there. muahaha.

note-to-self: must rmb to save the files somewhere and bring it back to hall.

im loving the touch of my labby's keyboard.

2008-11-21T10:57:00.002+08:00

6 more hours to go and it'll be partaye time! whoohoo!

and i really dont understand why there's just SO MUCH to rmb for 101. you'll be basically a walking textbook by then....

2008-11-19T21:13:00.002+08:00

i think my mummy damn cute lar. keep calling me today to ask me random questions just to find out how true some tests are. the first test was pretty much like finding out one's character, which my test result came out to be that i'm quite a 大女人主义 person. lol. but the second one is DAMN funny. it's about roughly when's the time the right other half will appear in your life. for me, it says my other half will appear when i started working. for my brother, it's totally hilarious. apparently, he has to go through matchmaking to find the right half. ROFL

anw, there's this top 3 thingy my mum found on some webby stating which horoscope will be diff to get/find a relationship. dont know if it's true but if you're interested, here's the top 3:

1st - scorpio
2nd - aries
3rd - capricorn

so errr.. anyone wanna discuss abt it? hahaha

2008-11-18T22:00:00.002+08:00

the actual battle starts tmr. just 25 mcq, 4 long question (of which 50% goes to stats xD) and it'll be half the battle down. jiayou yanqin! jiayou to all psych people! (:

and stop facebooking. and stop watching youtube. and stop getting distracted by music. ><

2008-11-14T23:27:00.002+08:00

sometimes i feel like im out of the league. something like out-of-touch with friends etc and become a zi-bi-er. ACTUALLY, i am a zi-bi-er in hall. hahaha like how xiaofeng always ask me go study with him and the rest at reading room/tv room, i always reject them. lol. but anw, im feeling like i'm really out of touch with classmates, whether it's sec sch class or s14. it's like i see everyone else still in touch with each other, but im like.. not really in touch with anyone... except jen whom i see almost every week and err.. eileen, whom i talked to right before our papers ytd or in other times, transferring msgs across via becky. hahaha.

anw, im half down. x) and my bro only started his first papers today. LoL. i bet he wanna killed me last night. anw, econs was pretty diff, and all those very "what-the-hell" kind of qn. and i dont know why so many people can still say it's easy and even regretting that they S/U it. cyber security was pretty easy, given that my brain was really totally fried by pure memorizing. just need to depend on the short-structured qn, which i think should be renamed as ESSAYS. but i must mention the last qn. it's a TOTAL giveaway. cause, the formulas are given in the formula sheet. the values of the variables are given in the question. all you need to do is input the correct values and use the calculator and get the answer. all these for a free 10 marks. LOL

one more week and it's holidays x) cant wait to fill myself up with all the new songs and taiwanese idol dramas that my bro downloaded. ^^ but right now, better throw away my econs and cyber security info out and fill it in with HP101 and HP102 stuff. i need a bigger and more effective hippocampus. ><

2008-11-12T13:29:00.002+08:00

my exam starts officially in 3.5 hrs. and it will end in 219.5 hrs time. lol

good luck to me and to everyone.

today will be the very last day i study econs. muahahaha.

2008-11-10T15:53:00.003+08:00

was watching this jap anime on scv the other day (while studying) and i fell in love with the ending song (: and yep you didnt see wrongly, it's a KOREAN song xP

Loveholic - Shinkirou
Kkum sok iu pi mul teul eun mal hae
Ma ju chil seul pheum teul eul
Yong seo leul ku ha lyeo hal
A peun ne mo seup to nae sa to
Ji chin teutta mul eo jin nun pi
Teo neum pa la ji anh a
Pi littha ke sum a teun pyeong teun sok i never know
Tol i kil su to eops eul kkum
Pa lae jin na iu ki eok teul
A pheum to mu tyeo jyeo peo lin kkae jin shim jang
Tha peo lin na iu yeong hon eun eun han nat sin (g)eo jin jae duh mi
Sang cheo ka teuk chan nun mul ha

*So tell me tell me the reason why
How can you do this to me
You break my heart and you make me cry

Kkeut i eopp neun ma ji mak tal pi
Jil cheok han pyeon myeong teul lo
Heun jeok eops i sa la jin
Neol phum eun tta seu ham you never know
Kkeut i eopp neun a pheum sok e
Nam kyeo jin neu eun hu hie to
Iu mi eops i sa la jyeo kal sa lang iu kko

2008-10-22T02:17:00.002+08:00

someone please enlightened a certain person that im not offended nor am i hurt by his so-called theory. also, please tell that person that he's overly sensitive into thinking that i am actually hurt and offended. HAH make sure that person is the one getting the situation right. why get so heated up by some factual stuff? unless that person just want face and ego to refuse the idea that his so-called theory is damn flawed and is scared to admit it! HAH

i want to find out who the mystery person is! hellooooo friend! who are you? lol

2008-10-21T14:46:00.002+08:00

by pointing out a fact, i dont see it as an attack or a defence. plus, what i had done is to pointing out smt in an UNEMOTIONAL way which brings NO sarcasm in it. if that's the case, would you deemed a fact with a smiley emote at the end as being an attack?

i dont see the point in attacking, and more importantly, i dont see the point in defending myself cause there's nothing for me to defend for myself!

however, if someone were to keep arguing back, and consider me as an attacker and yet a defender of myself, i would say the real defender is not me but that person himself/herself.

i never wanted to remain as enemies, but someone chose that pathway. all i can say that he/she thinks too much, and have a point of view that is miniscule.

i never say i wanted an apology, cause what's there to apologize anw? i've got nothing to hide so i aint afraid of what people think of me.

anw, thanks to whoever that random person is on my tagboard. that's a pretty nice encouragement. haha. yanqin is happy with her friends in school and hall (:

2008-10-15T14:03:00.004+08:00

this song is good for emo times. i.e listen to it while it is raining heavily outside. like err now. ><
周杰伦 - 失落非主流
你的绘画凌乱着.
在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
甜蜜散乱了.

情绪莫名的拉扯.
我还爱你呐.
伴你断断续续唱着歌.
假装没事了.

时间过了走了.
爱情面临选择.
你冷了却了我哭了.
一开始的不快乐.
你用卡片拭写着.
有些爱只给到这真的痛了.

怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得

你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.
要怎么停呢

怎麽了.
你累了.
说好的.
幸福呐.
我懂了.
不说了.
爱淡了.
梦淹了.
我都还记得.

你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.
要怎么停呐

i love the heavy rain now. but not the lighting and thunder, esp when you think your hall is a dangerous spot for lightning strikes due to its open space. ><

2008-10-12T22:10:00.002+08:00

happy birthday yeechian (:

i feel dumb cause i mistook her birthday as the 18th. i was wondering between 12 and 18. hahaha. anw celebrated her birthday at singapore flyer (: uploading photos later. hahaha now need to charge cam battery. happy happy. =)

2008-10-08T10:27:00.003+08:00

when yanqin sleeps like a pig, you know she is very tired. haha

yin singers night on monday is damn tiring. makes me keep wanting to sleep during lessons on tues. yawnn.. wanted to post photos up on facebook today but the darn facebook couldnt load now. T.T even hotmail has a problem with me. perhaps it's a sign to tell me go concentrate on my studying. hahaha.

this is a damn nice song (recommended by mings) (:

Jason Mraz (ft. Colbie Caillat) - Lucky
Do you hear me,
Talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

2008-10-05T21:13:00.004+08:00

it's an amazing thing to know that the world is actually small. and when you think you entered jc, and start knowing new jc friends who are your pri/sec sch friends' friends.. when you reached uni, more amazing stuff happens.

like i said before (i think i did), there's so many seniors here in hall who are my bro's friends. okay maybe not so many, but easily 5 or 6 of them. then my bro's junior from his sch foc og knows me (er well.. she's from nj and apparently she knows who i am lol). and now, for their foc09 main com, my bro's working alongside with wenhao. next, i sort of pulled sylvia into my bro's hall foc og. haha. and then in the same og, there's concidentally queenie too. for my own, my two gls jackson and veron are schmates with huiping. and then, bryan's junior pearl is my pri sch classmate. what's more amazing is which i just found out: li-chung's bro is my bro's senior. LOL

so actually that's where all the network started out.

and yanqin here feels like falling asleep alr... but she cant -.-

2008-10-03T23:21:00.002+08:00

siannnnnnn. there's group project meeting tmr in the morning so im staying in hall tonight, ALONE! -.- out of all days when becky just have to return on fridays. haha usually she dont.

got back all my quizzes results. hp102 was better than hp101. o.O i expected to really did badly for 102 actually. and then there's one qn in hp101 which i really cant forgive myself for getting it wrong. sighhhh. ganbatte for finals!

last night was shiok. me and becky got high and started screaming at each other. haha. even when we go shower tgt (in diff cubicles of course!), we were both screaming to each other in the common toilet. LOL. then there's darts training too. kaiyan is like pro lar. haha. what was funny is when we introduce each other to everyone. then we linked each other's names tgt. so there's ai-wen-kai-yan-qin. basically it comprise of ivan [ai-wen], wenkai, kaiyan, and me. LOL. and with all the bring-your-ic-photos-and-we'll-aim-at-them. hahaha. there's still mine and mingxiu's practice of on my own when we gave the cheesy lyrics parts to swee leeeeee. hahaha.

somehow i think ntu's life is really alot fun than jc. but someone's getting on my nerve ><

2008-10-02T15:41:00.002+08:00

having my usual 2hr break now between lessons. sighh next time must plan my timetable well. luckily there's always hall for me to come back. HAHA

hp101 tutorial is so fun just now. paired up with miaoqin for the memory test. haha and she helped me solve the mystery of how my bag got dirty. lol. i need to buck up for final exam. sighhh

i cant believe im like so suay this week. sighh. miaoqin will know why. hahaha. i think someone cursed me or smt.

there was maf celebrations in hall on monday. it's like late lar but still it's fun. practised dance for 3 weeks plus and the performance was fantastic (so i heard)! but i wanna watch the video! hahaha. sad that i didnt bring my cam there. shall bring next monday for yin singers and friends night (:

my bro thinks i know too many of his friends. LOL

2008-09-27T16:21:00.002+08:00

i think i've slacked too much during recess week that i think i cleared my sleep debt and possibly sleep surplus (if there's such a thing).

working with mummybear has never been so efficient today. we cut down 130+ words under a few minutes. muahaha. but stupid word limit and the bloody 24 more words that we need to cut. sighh.

2008-09-24T17:47:00.003+08:00

i had two buffets in a month. LOL anw, the recent buffet on sunday is similar to the one i had last month, but at least we know the minestrone soup is better than the mushroom soup. LOL the laksa was damn spicy too, that i koped my bro's water. HAHA. but still, the best is the desserts at the buffet. from tarts to durian puree to puddings, to cakes to ice cream and to endless CHOC FONDUE. muahahaha. there's even mochi with cake inside. YUMYUM.

enough of food, at least we get to see my uncle's girlfriend for the first time that day (: one funny part was when my bro asked me to help him take a fork from the buffet table, and i just reached out my hand and koped my cousin's one. LOL

in hall today and i spent my whole afternoon helping becky out (: just sent out a msg that's 5 msgs long for the milk orders. i hope that guy understand what i wrote HAHA.

pon hall dance last night (oops) to go bugis with xiaofeng to get his jcrc suit tgt with mummybear (: haha im going to her shop again on fri to err.. do our PAIRED assignment. LOL okay im just being bo-liao here

off to do my econs tutorial! (:

2008-09-20T17:11:00.002+08:00

the past week has been like NJ-style, mugging my heart and mind out just for the two quizzes. HP101 quiz is actually fun! hahaha. although it's like 64 qn and 1 an is 0.25marks. LOL but it's definitely in comparison to HP102 which everyone doesnt even understand what the lecture notes is about. Worse still, the textbook doesnt even help. haha. lucky me didnt buy textbook. i just photocopied. LOL

anw, there's been pretty lots of events too. Signed up for HSS FOC 09 as GL. interview was pretty funny cause it's like several interviews going on in different parts of the HSS Student Lounge, each for different postitions. went with jackson and bobby and i unknowingly went to appear before the interviewer alone with no mental preparations at all. and i cheered alone like a siao zha bo when everyone stares at me. haha. paiseh to huiqi who was shocked during the middle of her interview. AHAHA but anw, just received notice that i got through. hehex. next year, those in mine, jackson, bobby and veron's grp will be damn ON. LOL

then there's Hall 6's SIX. pretty fun too cause 2 out of 3 judges and 1 out of the 2 audience there during my audition has like connections to me [i.e one's my dance partner, 2 of them are my bro's friends]. so i got like 15 points from them free. LOL nahh just kidding. hehex. it's all just for fun. but yea.. audition went pretty badly though hehex. oh well, not going to bother it any much.

ytd was TORCO dinner at orchard x) fun fun. camwhored all the way. hahaha. thanks to sean who drove us there from school. haha. if not i had to carry all my stuff from school to orchard then back home. although many pang-sehed us in the end (sigh) but it's still fun. cause everything's fun with the torcos x) lalala

2008-09-09T22:32:00.002+08:00

i thought i should at least blog now, since i have been leaving this stagnant for a very long time. first up, i've got pretty great news! x) and i think i have like announced it to the whole world alr. i've finally passed my diploma! wheee x)

hall activities have been fun too. hall dance and yin sync. and i found out many of my seniors are like my bro's friends. LOL

alright, i think i shld go study my hp101 and hp102. no gc allowed for exam. T.T i have to go study correlation and regression again and figure out how to calculate the damn r value.

and now becky wants me to help her fold paper boxes. LOL

im gonna miss cat and yirong. i know im very disorganized in this post. oh well.. till the next time. LOL

2008-08-15T21:05:00.003+08:00

im back! after like so long. jul and first half of august is filled with lots of ups and downs. from being in torco (HSS FOC!), zephyr (Hall 6!) lots had happened.

all the best memories remain..

2008-07-12T20:44:00.001+08:00

men have pride.. and so do the females.

2008-07-11T15:08:00.002+08:00

yanqin is fat... around the thighs. blehhh.

i thought i shld blog smething before next week when im gonna be away for a full 5 days. i find it really funny when people move forward on the train platform when it has alr been announced that the train is not for boarding. this shows that the pa system has actually no effect. or does it? hmmmm

2008-07-02T20:58:00.003+08:00

medical checkup ytd. sounds scary but it's pretty fun. esp with the company i had. becky and her friends whom she made during her comm studies interview. so i've got 2 new friends in ntu alr. haha.

but it's super irritating. i've got no more student pass T.T there goes the card which accompanied me for close to 7 years! but there goes my ugly photo with my ex-bunny teeth. LOL

2008-06-30T21:17:00.002+08:00

last day of work! busy busy. but it's fun anw. get to hear everyone's well wishes and we actually talked to everyone in office. lol. but we got a scare while clearing our things. cause one of our notebook bags went missing mysteriously. luckily we found another somewhere.

anw... i forgot what i wanted to blog. i know it isnt abt my last day of work. but.. oh well.

i cant bully huishan anymore T.T hehex

congrats to sijing anw!!! x)

OH YA! just rmbed hahaha. stupid exam on national day. blehhh. must buck up now!

2008-06-29T20:47:00.010+08:00

tmr's last day of work. muahahhaa x) okie, anw, since we're leaving, everyone's like treating us to lunch. first, there was last tues's swensens treat by ee luang. friday we had swensens earthquake by allan. then tmr, the junior officers were saying that they're gonna treat us to pizza tmr. hehex. i think i'll grow fat. but tmr's gonna be a damn busy day. cause everyone had booked us for work on monday. lol

anw, on friday we took a few photos with some colleagues. the rest had gone home so what im going to post will not be all. ^^;

with swee bee..................zehan.......

sam and jocelyn......................

my officers allan and jeremy.....

my big boss (in SINGA) ee luang.........

elaine and lingzhi....................

felicia........................................

and lilian.

x) anw ytd, made white choc chips macadamia nuts cookies. YUMMY. taste is good but presentation abit er.... haha. no photos for nutty cookies though. =/ oh well. next time then

2008-06-25T09:32:00.002+08:00

4 more working days (including today) till END OF WORK! muahahaha XD i think now everyone's trying to work us till hell since we're leaving. lol

ANW, ytd we had a lunch treat by ee luang x) swensen's!! hehex. and we had the executive lunch. there's a total of 9 people! all from SINGA office, heh, only my two other friends aint in that office. lol. but but ambihaa came back ytd to join us for lunch x) yummy

stupid ntu rebounced my photo back. blehhh. so had to re-submit it. my bro was complaining it that now ntu's getting more mafan too. heh ^^; i might be staying hostel with becky x) hehehx.

this song is damn nice and emo x) [pardon the traditional chinese. kope it directly from baidu ^^;]

林宥嘉 - 背影
三公分阳光三公分空气
堵在眼前像一面玻璃
挡住了你表情剩下只有脚印
he……

一直向前走走不完距离
一直向后退不出回忆
很高兴有心事帮我困住自己

你头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
你的目光蒸发成云
再下成雨我才能够靠近

感谢我不可以住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽

感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落不用你回头看
不用珍惜

我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和你相遇
我的心事蒸发成云
再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你

躲在安静角落如果你回头看
不用在意

2008-06-23T12:07:00.002+08:00

not much stuff at work now so it's time for me to rant!! hehex. anw, sometimes i really dont understand. singapore has such a high literacy rate, yet many do not even understand simple english like "please stand to your left (on the mrt escalators)" and "please let passengers alight first". damn freakingly irritating esp when you're trying to alight but others are pushing you inside! cant they just understand that the train drivers have a mirror and their eyes to see if the platform is empty or crowded?if everyone pushes alighting passengers in, the drivers wld think that everyone who's alighting have already alighted. plus, the "door closing" signal doesnt have a time limit! it is controlled by the train drivers! (i assumed that's the case since every station has a different time limit for the signal) so in short, let alighting passengers alight first! oh, and it doesnt really help if you let people alight first but you're standing right at the door. makes no diff.

anw, yanqin is happy for the past week. x) watched kungfu panda and get smart with her fav boyboy. x) both are really damn funny. highly recommended. hehex. thenn.. last sunday, yanqin has to admit she's slightly irritated. cause cheater no.1 nicole ng and cheater no.2 swee geok left victim no.1 lee yee chian and victim no.2 chua yan qin alone at east coast park early in the sunny morning when our outing is cancelled but no one informs us. grrr. oh well. hehehex. the two victims still enjoyed their cycling trip xP

orientation coming up! i'll be gone for 5 whole days. dont miss me. anw it's still early now. and i actually havent apply for it yet. blehhh. hope i get in x)

2008-06-13T20:36:00.002+08:00

dumb me forgot that i had a scanner at home. so why bother use the one in the office. blehhh

life is totally boring now. those who agreed, raise your hands *raise both hands* ^^;

2008-06-12T21:42:00.003+08:00

yanqin just received her uni admission package and two words to describe it: confusing and complicated. =S

im taking two days leave next week. muahaha. huishan too. so we'll probably give the office a preview of what is like when the two of us is forever gone from the office. muahahaha xP and today we were facebooking in office and were deciding whether we wanted to add some of our colleagues into fb. lol. anw to those who think im slacking at work, im totally not k. it's just that i've got work but i just cant do them cause i cant edit a file when someone else opens it! lol. so that means, early in the morning must chiong to open the file first or wait until the file is closed (and that means a long long time later). lalala

i just finished watching 3 dramas recently??!! that's like a feat man. thanks to ambihaa. hahaha. but the shows i've been watching are pretty old dramas. except one lar. haha. but one drama must have been abt close to 10 years old i guess. lol. next on the list: korean drama! lol

im bored from typing an entry. nothing seems interesting these days.

2008-05-24T23:35:00.004+08:00

i _must_ blog abt this. x) im finally completed my music theory x) i've got a PASS in grade 8 theory. muahahaha x) no more theory anymore (YES!!!!!!).

im just happy with a pass. hehehex x)

on the side-note, i've got friendS with me in ntu x) yippee yahoo x)

[edit] hehehex. i won my cousin for my theory by 1 mark (though he seems he shld have done alot better than me) [/edit]

2008-05-20T21:04:00.002+08:00

today i felt like stabbing someone. ^^;

yaknow, i was wondering. what if i put my msn pm as "who's in nus?". what would people's reaction be if..
xxx: "hey! you're in nus? me too!!"
me: "oh congrats! i wont ever see you again in school"

LOL okay im just kidding. no ill intentions to whoever going to nus, like boyboy. HAHAHA. im just _wondering_ xP

quoted from cheryl "you finally succumbed to joining facebook ah"

hehex. facebook IS a drug. now i know why...

2008-05-19T20:23:00.002+08:00

the past week at work had been tormenting. thank god for the 4 days mini "hol" i had. hahaha. fri the company had their retreat which means HOLIDAY! hah. spent the day making waffles using a pancake recipe. lol but it turn's out to be nice. though i didnt take photo of my pretty waffles. awwww

sat was tiring. dental early in the morning and i got a shock of my life. heh shant say abt it. evening was campfire! whoohoo! this year's fire was great although there isnt any fireballs. darn. and i wonder what's with all the marching stuff although cedar's marching was cool. hahaha. then there's one performance from a certain guy sch (which i cant rmb which) totally give me the creeps. i swear i was shivering in cold sweat then. hahaha refreshments was DAMN GOOD but then again, it's sponsored (like the first in history). hahaha. but campfire overall has been great because of the company! like meeting up with juniors and seniors esp cat, lyn, mich chee, alicia etc. stayed for debrief in which we realized the leaders who's in charge of this whole campfire this year are those lil kids which me and cat taught them. hahaha. after that alicia kinda drove us around which was damn funny cause cat and kristyn were damn noisy in the car and keeps commenting on alicia's driving skills. xP

sunday was out with boyboy then at night went to bishan to accompany mummy for the vesak day celebrations. the procession was damn tiring, i almost lost my footing at a steep slope. hehex. but it's quite irritating that when you want to cut, it's hard to cut. grrr but i managed to finish it in 2 hrs time and we started out at exactly 12am x) hehehex. luckily, i managed to drink a cuppa of their coffee before it x) their coffee is like heavenly. hehehex.

today was rest day. i dread going to work tmr. cause it means EMAILS. that's why they say people always sufferred from monday blues (though tuesday blues are more applicable this week).

i accepted ntu's offer just now too! anyone in ntu? hahaha (i just found out a few more people doing or wanting to do psychology. cool! x) though, no one's in ntu besides rachel.)

2008-05-07T21:32:00.001+08:00

YIPPEEE!! i shld have blogged abt it on monday night but i discovered a even BETTER happier thing today along with the good news x) i got into NTU's psychology!!! WHEEEEEEEE x) and tgt with it, RACHEL MUMMY is gonna be my university mate =) *happy happy*

okay that's it, hope everyone gets their letters soon. and to ambihaa! all the best for chem engine interview x) (and rmb my food from penang. hehehex)

2008-04-27T21:18:00.002+08:00

ahhh im freaking scared now. ntu's sending acceptance letters and i havent received any yet. and huishan's feeling the same too! help!!!

i want psychology (or at least a chem engine) at ntu! please please please. >< i hope nus havent send out any letters yet. i hope psychology havent send out any too.

may is such a lively and fun yet nerve-wrecking month.

2008-04-22T21:04:00.002+08:00

we just discovered that my officer is a VERY childish guy. o,o

huishan refuses to dance the banana dance today! so sad. haha.

office this two days has been pretty much eating and eating. rebecca bought us a packet of toblerones. and we finished it in two days. somewhere, there's choc cakes and cupcakes. then there's my banana chips that i bought the other day. then cindy gave us raisin chocs today too. im gonna grow fat lar.

today on the train, some random lady came talk to me, starting by saying that my bag is nice and asked me where i got it from and how much it is. LOL when i said it costs 9 pounds (cause i bought it from london), she heard it as 900. do i look like i have the money to spend 900 on a simple bag which is now fading in colour? LOL 900 to me is like WOW. takes more than a month for me to earn that k., and that's because employment agencies are daylight robbers (we just found out that they took 30% of our actual pay as commission). like grrrr. i cld have really earn like close to 1.5K a month lar. blehhh oh well, at least i have a good and fun working environment. =)

2008-04-20T20:50:00.002+08:00

for the past two weeks, i've been having like weird weird dreams. blehh. some are really funny, yet the most recent one is quite scary.

the first weird dream is totally hilarious. haha. dreamt of stanley being my stepbrother. LOL. i dont know why i even dream of him. blehhh

the second one is which i dreamt of going on a cruise with a group of friends. sounds normal? the group of friends have a mix of primary, secondary and jc friends which include, jiaqi, matthew ho, swee, wanyi and zhirui -.-

the third one is a total mix of weird things. there's one in which i dreamt of swee starting off a mini campfire right outside my primary school on the pavement with charchoals. o.O then there's another in which i was rejected by nus and ntu (please dont let that happen to me real life) and was sent to vietnam for university studies. -.- and then there's another which i got a job, preparing macadamia nuts for restaurants in a company in which is the name for one of A*STAR's RIs. (!!!!!) hahaha. random weird stuff lar. oh well. i still find the first one super hilarious.

today i almost forgot i had piano makeup lesson. hahaha. i only rmbed it 2 1/2 hrs before it. lol. and this weekend i had no psp to play T.T mehhhh

2008-04-15T20:51:00.002+08:00

i realized not many people blog now. hahaha. so am i. and i think i owe this entry to quite a few people. anw, while im missing since the last time i blogged, there's not much stuff that happened too, except dinner out with momo, nic, retards and wanyi! yummy nydc. and retard no.2 order things based on the name -.- (well, she thought "pigs can fly" is a cute name, so she ordered that). had gelato too! hehex. yummy. and i rmbed i totally died the next day cause i slept quite late and it was a thurs.

other than that, work wise, i had to rush rush rush so many things to prepare for some overseas trip for my officers. in the end, trip cancelled. -.- so i had to send hundreds of email out. hahaha. and some of the replies are really funny. i showed ambihaa the mails and she too went "omg" haha. xP

anw i decided today is a good day to post cause (1) i finally spent my time creating a new playlist on my itunes. wootz! all the emo songs. hahaha. nice nice. =) and (2) JEREMY finally decided to treat US to lunch today at rocky masters!! but it's all thanks to EMILY. hehehex. yummy lunch. i think we totally burnt a hole in his pocket, hehehex. who asked him give us (or rather ME) so much work. xP i deserved it. xP lalala. and we got desserts too! the strawberry cheesecake is heaven. yumyum. and the choc cake is good (though it isnt to my taste cause it's toooo chocalatey) and tiramisu (which is kinda gooey. =S). and to think he wanted to treat us holland v nasi lemak. -.-" hahaha kidding kidding.

this sunday, im gonna clear my mp3 and make it one emo playlist. muahahha

2008-03-30T19:56:00.003+08:00

HELP!!! im seriously addicted to (1) library books and (2) PSP!!!!!!!

hehex. psp is really fun AND addictive. and nope i dont own one. hehex.

anw, huishan recently borrowed Dan Brown's Angels and Demons, with illustrations. the book is DAMN GOOD. storyline aside, the illustrations are the best. it totally is like damn helpful while reading the book. with maps and real photos to show you the attractions or places. it's totally cool. but try to read it under 3 days, see whether it's cool or not. hahaha. cause when she first brought the book to office, ambihaa read it in 2 days (but that's cause she doesnt really has work in office) and then i took it back home to read (and i have lots of work to do). so i had to read it before the duedate which is today. hahaha. lousy huishan read so slow xP

and help again! my teachers havent send in appraisal form for ntu! -dies- and i need to reply cpf back and send them my declaration form for medishield AND i didnt even get a business reply form. blehhh. how how? it says send by end of this month which is TMR. and i cant even get through their service line. HELP

what major is right for you quiz

2008-03-25T11:27:00.002+08:00

the below quiz is koped from huijuin. hehex

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?
created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Visual&PerformingArts

You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in the Visual or Performing Arts (e.g., Art, Art Education, Art History, Ceramics, Culinary Arts, Dance, Drawing, Fashion Design, Film, Graphic Design, Interior Design, Marketing (advertising), Music, Music Education, Music Theory, Painting, Photography, Theatre).

It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.

Psychology/Sociology

94%

Visual&PerformingArts

94%

HR/BusinessManagement

81%

Accounting/Finance/Marketing

81%

Mathematics/Statistics

69%

English/Journalism/Comm

69%

Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health

56%

Biology/Chemistry/Geology

56%

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage

50%

Physics/Engineering/Computer

50%

Education/Counseling

50%

History/Anthropology/LiberalArts

50%

PoliticalScience/Philosophy

44%

Religion/Theology

44%

perhaps i should just be a piano teacher. HAH

2008-03-23T21:27:00.002+08:00

im back to blogging! lol. okay im like really losing the interest in blogging because simply, my life is boring. i mean i have work everyday and it's like a routine. then sat out with my boyboy and it'll be movies. i just watched the water horse ytd. and it's DAMN CUTE (when it's young only lar). okay other than that, boring life. let's just say today, watch tv, play PSP!! hehehex. i think im addicted. but then my bro brought that psp back to hostel (cause it's his roomie's one), so i gotta like play it once a week or smt. and then, i spent 2 hrs playing this game, which i still dont know how to play. HAH. im lousy. blehhh

the past few days, i've been hooked to watching taiwanese news too! to watch the excitement of the taiwan presidential polls. hahaha. it's really damn interesting. and it's amazing that i actually watched it and catch it cause i always think that politics is a boring topic. lol. but i guess it's only this polls that catch my interest. hehehex. anw, im happy with the result of the polls. not that it matter to me.

there's really nothing to talk abt. unless you wanna fish out office happenings from me. the most interesting thing that happened up to date, is still this guy from my office who doesnt know how to tie a tie!! that was hilarious. ambihaa had to tie it for him. tsk. but that was quite long ago. we had training as SIA girls too (according to sam) but that was voluntary. hehehex.

oh! i havent talked abt theory test! hahaha, one good thing is that there's no terms for me to decipher! wheeeeee okay got some lar, but that's not really terms. more like symbols. hehehex. if you know what i mean. but anw, good thing that qn 4 and 5 are simple (like really simple) and that's like 50% of the marks. HAH. just 16% more to pass. lol. that's abt it

there you go. my blog entry. till next time! hehehex hope everyone HAD a good friday. too late to wish people to HAVE one. ^^;

2008-03-09T17:28:00.003+08:00

i've roughly decided on my first 3 choices for ntu. heh. since my bro still managed to get into bioengineering on his second choice when there's only 100 intakes, i think i'll still be able to make the cut for psychology if i placed it at second choice. and like what everyone else says: there's no hope if you dont even try.

right now, besides pondering on my 4th and 5th choices, i shall have to focus for the upcoming sat now. heh. i dont wanna screwed up my music theory exam like i screwed up gp. blehhh. but right now, i just hope for a merit. focus!!!

(but there's so much foreign terms to know. italian/ german/ french. BLEHHHH)

2008-03-08T19:45:00.001+08:00

i wanted it to be a dream but sadly it isnt. right now, im hoping (ntu hss) will like accept me. im giving up on nanyang business school cause i know now even if i put it as one of my options, i'll probably be 100% wasting my choices. so now, im depending on ntu hss. please i want to get into ntu psychology division!! T.T after that, i shall use up my other 4 options to fill in engineering courses. at least my core subjects are fine, and that the application form indicates o level results too (so they wld know my english is not ALWAYS that bad), and that there's this non-academic achievements to fill up (so at least i have hope since schools always emphasize on all-rounded students).

right now, i think everyone knows which 3 alphabet letters i hate right now. grrrrr

but anw, congrats to those who scored well.

and thanks to all those who consoled me in one way or another.

but i kinda feel cheated in the way universities collate the scores. i shld have taken h1 econs. i'll probably get an A lar. which means i'll get a full 10 marks out of 10. they shld give a few bonus marks for those who did all core subjects at h2 level. blehhh. but that's life. im still thankful for that small little portion of non-academic acheivements thingy to write.

so right now, i can only pray hard to get into ntu hss. P-L-E-A-S-E!!!
(darn. it has one of the letters i hate now. blehhh)

2008-03-06T20:29:00.002+08:00

tmr's the DAY. huishan is like telling us how scared she was for the past whole week lar. haha. i not greedy or ambitious lar, just give me a good pass in gp, and above Cs for other subjects i'll be tremendously happy.

this week, we have 2 new permanent staff! one under christine and another under (im not sure but it's my side one). so anw, the funny thing is me the temp staff has to teach the permanent staff how to do everything from updating to photocopying to sending out documents and where we put all the stuff. so the first few days of the week when i had to update alot of stuff, she kinda became my assistant and photocopied the documents (oops). but she really did a great job! hehehex. but now after today when i taught her most of the things, i'll now be a TEMP staff by helping her x) although my leave has been gone T.T oh well, and im the only one to have 1/2 day tmr. my two other friends decided not to pei me. lol

help help. im trying to digress. goodluck to everyone!

2008-02-24T18:32:00.000+08:00

lousy postman; lousy weekend; worst of all - lousy headache; lousy giddiness

2008-02-17T17:22:00.002+08:00

ever since vday, i've been like so sad and emo. ><

my blog's getting boring i know. no one tags. i love people who tags. oh well. but i assume that's because i have a boring life. i mean mon to fri i have nothing else but work (okay exception wed where i have a super duper long day and can only have dinner at 9+). work's taking a toll on my brain (and my table)! my work table, shared with huishan and ambihaa, used to be pretty free on everything else except our laptops. now it's filled with boxeS of documents - all under my charge. and my desktop is filled with excelsheets. my brain is fried. but luckily, things are sent out! yay! less mess at my table. then saturday comes. out with boyboy. sunday comes. either stoning at home or reading books. and now im having a weekly headache on sundays.

sometimes i wonder who's my real true friends. im serious. i always think im alone in this world. my friends approach me when they have something to ask for a favour. and most of them wants to meet me on sat (which i always had to reject them). and the more i type now the more i feel like crying. so long then

2008-02-13T14:15:00.002+08:00

i shld start blogging frequently now hahaha but now is actually a weird timing. i've been either lazy at home or busy at work. finally heaving a sigh of relief and taking a break from work now since my officer havent return from lunch yet! whoohoo! but my brain was thoroughly fried just now =/

cny celebrations has been rather okay only. last last sunday was reunion dinner with my maternal relatives and we had lots of fun. catered food, card games with cousins and ruxin (i only have two cousins btw), pool and karaoke. lol. reunion dinner with paternal relatives last tues fared worst. while all other younger cousins are like &%$#($%^#$ taller than me now (blehh), im like so not close to them. and then i no longer have common topic to talk to anyone now. grace has ntu stuff to talk with my bro. so probably half a yr later i can join them hahaha. wanxing is now following my steps to be a guide (that's cause her sch doesnt have hockey). that's abt it. shant talk into details

cny hols i've been catching lots of movies. old and new. hahaha. in total i watched 4 1/2 movies! 1/2 movie is contributed by sweeney todd. hahaha. cause i was damn scared to even finish the whole movie (and before he even start killing anyone). anw, i had sweeney todd movie at home in the com. dont ask me how i got it. hahaha. but the songs are good though the scenes are like gloomy and dark. it's more like a black and white film (almost!). old movies include the devil wears prada and pride and prejudice. hahaha. new movies include kungfu dunk (jay chou is like really cute lar xP not handsome but cute) and cj7. cj7 is like the media hypes up everything but i dont think it's that nice. first the story plot is so weak. what you realized what is happening, it's on to the next scene alr. but the alien dog is damn cute. hahaa. anyone wanna buy me yellow and green cloth? then i can (try) sew one cj7 stuff toy for you like shown in the movie xP

im like damn scared of results lar. bleh. nothing to talk much also. my blog is a boring blog i know. hehehex. and i havent been catching up on others' blogs too. i want my sleep!!!

2008-02-01T20:41:00.000+08:00

finally it's the weekend. im like dead tired today. esp standing for the whole day photocopying stuff and i killed lots of trees because of it. i like totally used up almost 3 full stacks of photocopy paper lar. and im only about 1/3 through what im supposed to be photocopying. hahaha.

ytd went out with sijing for dinner! yay! although it's a short two hours but at least i managed to catch her before she flies back to australia. =)

anw working at a*star gave me inside info for those applying scholarships now. HAHA. yea, i took a glimpse of what huishan was typing ytd, then i saw the applicant name. i was thinking "how come so familiar?" HAHAHA. it was actually haikal's interview results. LOL. and his interview was like right outside my office. so yup, i had first-hand information about his results~~ lol. the only other nj person applying for this scholarship is that lignum guy. the one who always volunteers himself. lol. the rest is from other jcs. hahaha.

oh ytd was freaky. cause i had to take some docs into a board meeting. the sign says vacant. so i knock very softly only. then inside when i open the door, every professors turned their head to look at me lar. freaky. haha.

i think that's all. i know i have a boring life. sigh. it's the weekend! i need my sleep x)

2008-01-28T20:38:00.000+08:00

new blogskin! thanks to my boyboy who help me undid all the mess that the lousy author did. blehh. so hardwork for just a new skin. hehehx. thanks! =) i love the picture!! but i purposely put the font slightly bigger from 8pt to 9pt so retard no.2 cannot complain that my font is too small until she cannot read. xP

okay anw, work today was B-U-S-Y. B for BUSY. no longer BORED. hahaha. cause there's lots to update. update and update and update. and it's like neverending. lol. so from 230 work until 6 just updating. lol. sorry to sijing who's been waiting for me to talk. but when i finally can, it's going home time. ^^; at least she has games to play. hahaha. thurs dinner with her! yay!

okay i think that's it. shld say smt abt having a new skin. hehehex. ^^;

oh btw, moe hq cafe the chicken chop is DAMN NICE. hehehex. but their mashed potatoes suck. =/ but who cares. get the chicken chop! their sauce is like DAMN MOUTH-WATERING AND NICE! x)

2008-01-27T21:08:00.000+08:00

i might be busy this week at work! cause my officer is back and there will be lots of admin stuff to be done. hehehex. better than nothing to do at work. anw, on thurs a new temp staff joined us! her name is ambihaa. hahaha. huishan has really short-term memory. lol. xP anw she's a smart girl. from rgs and rjc. wow. hahaha. and take h3 maths. lol. and her bro's same age as my brother and takes bioengineering! diff uni though. but she's under hazel tgt with huishan. so im still the only one under the other group. hehehex. anw at work last week i had to call some professors' assistants for some enquiries. haha. quite scary. my hand was trembling =/ i hope they return my desk's phone soon! cause i've been using the phone at jeremy's last week (since he's away) or zehan's. so mafan. haha. and tmr morning i need to call some agent up too.

friday night met up with yiyi, angie and steph for dinner! short one though. cause steph has to rush to some pub in clarke quay for her farewell dinner - that day was her last day at work. so we had nydc at suntec. hahaha. me, angie and steph pick the same stuff lar. lol. yiyi had a vegetarian sandwich. cause she's vegetarian. after she watched this documentary sharkwater. but you shld get to know her reason for her being vegetarian 4 years ago until she broke it 2 years ago. the reason is damn stupid. xP

steph, angie,yiyi,me

anw, notice angie's dressing. hahaha. in fbts leh! lol. okay that's because she's relief teaching at chongfu primary. teaching stupid subjects (as she said). health education, p.e, art. lol. we were like "ART?! you sure you can or not?" HAHAHA. yiyi is working at school of autism being a teacher's assistant. some of her stories are like damn scary lar. hahhaa. steph will be starting her new work at tan tock seng hosp. ANW, angie got her driving license! like last sept as she said. though i didnt really get to prove it. she said she drove to suntec that day. we asked her to drive us back home but she keeps refusing. until we reached the mrt. then we realized she cheated us! hahaha. we suspect it's her dad drove her there. lol xP

the other day i heard this new song over on mtv. spanish song by sarah brightman and fernando lima. it's damn nice. it's those songs that can possibly get me into tears on a rainy day on a bus when im alone. haha. i love those kind of songs. i dont care abt tears. lol it's really nice. x) ask me for the song! hahaha.

sometime last week i wanted to blog about commuters at the train station/ on the train. lol. something to cont what my boyboy blog last time. hehehehx

2008-01-22T15:35:00.000+08:00

im bored. B STANDS FOR B-O-R-E-D!!!! sigh. anyone who can get online please talk to me. hehehex. cheryl i know you're bored too. lol

anw i got a horrible news this morning. horror to me not to you. blehhhh. you refers to anyone possibly reading this. okay except some. anw anw, MS TAN IS LEAVING GUIDES!!!! that's the horror part. knew it from suyi when i read her mail this morning. so sad lar. my sec sch memories are based on mainly guides and guides memories are based mainly on my batch of friends, seniors, crazy juniors, campfires, dance, ms goh and ms tan! maybe the good thing is it's guides not sc. blehhh. but still it's bad news (to me) even though ms tan kinda told me about it before that she wanted to leave when we had a one-to-one talk last time. so sad now. sigh. last time everyone used to be so scared of her. haha. and those who got her for interviews are deemed as doomed. but actually nothing of that sort when we were leaders and preparing for interviews. lol. she's the first teacher i knew in sc! ok random. but yea, that's how close (if you can use that word) we are! ms tan is a good teacher. very good in fact. cause she cares! i still rmbed her offering her help for my social studies even though she's not my ss teacher. haha. and my sec2 dec accident in which she, ms goh and mrs hong (which i can only rmb her face and that she freaked out when i had the accident) sent a floral arrangement to my house! then all the help and guidance she gave us throughout our four years in guides! and we searched through the guides past photos to see her in skirt. lol. why is ms tan leaving guides? =( horror news. blehhh

anw anw i terribly bored. someone come save me!! please. above is a boring post i know. then again who ever reads this? hahaha. im being paranoid these days! i think some people dont like me. =( [hahaha sam, one of my colleagues who just came back from reservice, just noticed that im stoning. lol. and YES THAT SHOWS IM BORED!!!!!!] back to topic. yea i think i kinda know who doesnt like me. someone in ns now. lol. NOT MY BOYBOY LAR! hehehehx. someone else. lol. no wonder. and i can only say no wonder. does that makes a clue? hahaha. too bad if you cant catch it. and then again, there's another im guessing. lol. okay im just paranoid. hahaha. so that makes 2! oh man. paranoid me. A FOR ASSURANCE! im learning my ABCs now. lol im done with A and B lol. blehhh

this is a post you'll read from a boring person. and this is dedicated to all people of the world who's feeling bored now. LOL. there you go. yanqin who's feeling DAMN BORED NOW! and yes! D FOR DAMN! lol

2008-01-21T10:33:00.000+08:00

i should blog if not people start calling me lousy xP hahaha. last week has been really busy for me. helping colleagues get ready for their overseas trip. lots of stuff to do. great fun but me was too tired such that i felt sick ytd =/ blehhh and because they're overseas now, i'll be slacking for this whole week! what a contrast. hehehex.

anw i wanted to blog abt random stuff sometime last week. tuesday i went past orchard mrt. the day the new entrance opened. looks pretty nice and spacious. and reminds me of an aquarium. just that it's a longer walk from taka/ wisma to there now. until they knocked down the basement pathway to wisma from orchard.

then i saw this girl decked in pink from head to toe! haha. some of you might be thinking of a certain b word now. lol. anw yup i noticed her cause almost everything on her is pink. let me list them for you.
1) hairclip
2) ear rings
3) shirt
4) long pants
5) bag
6) fingernails
7) handphone pouch
8) ring

and i think one more which i cant rmb. thank god her shoes and jacket aint pink! hahaha. and by coincidence, many were wearing pink that day. lol

okay last week was hell. not because of work. because i missed my boyboy so much hehehex x) i deserved a praise now. lol. yup he got back on friday night and we went out on sat, stoning at starbucks at bugis for storytelling, and meeting cheryl at popular. hahaha. =)

i havent really talk much abt my colleagues. they are really nice people =) this guy call jeremy is my reporting officer. hahaha. and he's away now. and he kinda said last week "nvm, work her more. she can slack alot next time. hahah" lol. i think that's his implication. lol. but he's nice lar. then there's jocelyn and daphne who's giving me work too. rina and zehan who's always helping me with stationery and with the speedpost thingy which i hate to do it. cause the postman always come at the wrong time. hahaha. then of course others who are really nice =) and the cleaning auntie! who always definitely says "zao an" or "chi bao le mei?" hahaha. and the security guards there also damn nice. lol. esp one who told me and my friend that his home is the mailroom. lol. and that's about it. IM GETTING MY PAY TMR WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE X)

so long. i'll try to blog as often as i can now (since im gonna slack this week). hehehex.

2008-01-14T11:01:00.001+08:00

hello everyone! im back to blog after being dead for at least a week i supp? hehex/ nothing much actually. cant rmb what i wanna type also. hehex. im just clearing cobwebs. now i have to tend to two blogs hehex. rants will be up on the other blog. lolx. he allowed me too hehex ^^; anw weekend has been great! out with boyboy on sat and we watched le grand chef. omg it's so damn touching. esp the cow scene. blehhh. and i cried. omg i cried. haha. oops but yea it's super touching. and the female lead is so damn funny. esp at the test-tasting part. lol. but then part of the movie is gross/ hehehex. ^^; sunday was 4pr class party. and being "classic me" = "blur me", i brought my camera, without the batt in it. -.- so yup photos at sheena's and wonder's. so if anyone help me do a favour if you have facebook. hehehex. go sheena's profile and help me kope photos hehex ^^; class party is boring sad to say. cause not everyone go. and ms goh refuses to come. on the excuse that it's pouring at her place and she has lots of assignments to mark even though 17 of us offer to help her mark. hahaha. then there's the usual clique there.. good thing was to catch up with people i havent seen for 2 years. like candera, sheena, wonder, jennifer, sida and i think that's all. hahaha. if we only have a complete class gathering hehex

yupyup that's all. work now been slightly busier. hehex esp friday. totally no time for myself. it's like one task after another. the way i would have preferred too. haha. better than last wed which i totally had no work at all. hahha.

shld i feel honoured now? many people are asking me out for dates! hahaha. momo was super funny when she asked me. sadly i was busy then so havent gotten the chance to reply to her. sigh. oh yirong, do you read this? hahaha. when are we going out too? lol

i miss my boyboy alr lar. he's off to tekong this morning. blehhhh. hurry up sat! hahaha.

2008-01-07T08:57:00.000+08:00

im like right here blogging while probably almost all the other ogls were in school watching walk in. sigh. i wanna watch but then i decide it's only an hour of show. haha. i rather work and stone for the rest of the day while money comes in. lol. and yes im seriously really broke. my allowance only allows me a dollar for lunch! yes a dollar! hahaha. with that i could only get a bun every day. lolx.

last night i finally didnt dream of anything. not that i hate dreams. some dreams are nice. those that arent are called nightmares. hahaha. so basically dreams are nice things. but i have weird dreams! the terribly impossible kind of dreams. like venue: primary school hall. people with: 06s14. people met: my dear chipmunks. what kind of dream is this? hahaha.

i've finished my lil project last night! feeling happy now. and i realize two uses to it. hehehex. one stone kills 2 birds. yay! but ytd i was really tired. been spring cleaning my room. haha. you shld see the amt of rubbish me and my brother produce! the karang guni man can earn alot now. hahaha. but i managed to clean half the room only. because (1) brother been hogging the vacumn cleaner the whole day (2) mummy helping brother cause he's starting school today so he wont be home at all now to clean his room (3) his room is half of my room. so his whole room = half of my room = we did almost the same amount of work anyway. (4) he plays while he cleans. hmmmm....

okay yea so i left the other half of my room to clean up. my room seems fresh now anw. hehehex.

it's 905. i've stone for 35mins. 7hrs and 55min to go. lol.

sometimes i think people shldnt try to indirectly or directly criticize others so much. cause in the end, they'll be slapping their own mouth. and somethings, i can only say serve you right. hahaha. you're evil. hmph!

[edit] since lunch is in 3 mins time. i rmb smt. haha. i had the worst worst long john's meal ever on saturday. fries not fried deep enough. no crispy fritters. T.T. the chicken can be cut (i think real long john chicken cannot be cut so easily with a knife. hahaha) the potato crisps - some are not crispy! it's hard! and yup. i think only the drink of my meal save the day. lol. and it's funny to hear the cleaning auntie complaining. lol. boyboy will know abt it. hehehex. and yes, long john shld take away that branch! ask me if you want to avoid that place. hehehex. [/edit]

2008-01-04T10:31:00.000+08:00

im supp to be blogging two days ago since jan 2 was the start of school and now we have no school. hehex. finally in six years that i wont be waking up at a extra early timing of 5+am. yay! but then again, no school = no concession = adult fare = outrageous! now i spend 2 bucks plus travelling from my place to buona vista and back lar. rarrrr.

i forgot what i wanted to type actually. haha. oh my brain is getting real rusty. maths failing alr. seriously. haha. i can even do mental sums. blehhh. i need someone's brain. probably haikal's or cheryl's hahaha. work been good yet boring. i got more work ytd. counting brochures (blehhh), typing, updating excel, mailing etc. and my stomach is grumbling. 1 1/2 hrs more to lunch! shida's last day ytd though. but there's another temp staff coming to replace her soon. haha. and the three of us gotta squeeze into one cubicle again. cause there's no extra table. hahaha. talking abt lunch, me and huishan popped by the moe cafeteria ytd. then we walked around biopolis cause it'll be too early to head up to office doing nothing. we found a new eating place near our building. haha. another option to add on to the matrix foodcourt, and the moe cafeteria. i really cant rmb what to blog about. sighhh. talking abt getting old. blehhh

im on a secret lil project now. hehehex. and it's almost halfway done. whoohoo! after two nights in fact. haha. it took me only a few hours to get it halfway done. and yup it's coming along very nicely. hehehex. yay!! today's the 4th.. so that leaves 8 more days to finish it and 11 more days to the actual thing =) lalalala. hehehex. theodore giggles (like me). awww =)

2008-01-01T18:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

im glad i didnt go countdown last night. not that i ever went for one. haha. but it i ever went for one this year, i think i wldnt be counting down to the new year. i think i'll be counting down to when the crowd will leave, that's by assuming the places are too crowded and people are squeezing alot to catch the fireworks. this is because, MY SHOULDERS ARE STILL ACHING LIKE HELL FROM THE FREAKING HOT SUN ON SUNDAY!!! hehex ^^; and my nice mummy keeps forgetting that im totally sunburnt. so she whacked me twice on my back alr yesterday. ouch. and i cant even properly carry my bag. i hugged it. people must think im a freak hugging a bag while walking around jurong point ytd. haha.

alvin and the chipmunks are simply too cute =) it's the first movie that i ever start commenting abt it since the first minute of the movie till the end. theodore is too adorable. hehehex. fat and small. and he had nightmares. the way he pleads with dave is simply awwwwwww. hehex. no wonder the first retard loves chipmunks so much. AND chipmunks make me miss robyn and claire, my two other fellow chipmunks. sighhh.

no new year resolutions this year. cause it's damn hard to even keep it for a month, much less 365.25 days. haha. but then again, i always tell myself, i better be a good girl this year/fromt today onwards etc. haha then this year santa will give me a great present. LOL. think abit far eh. hehex. christmas please dont be late this year. HAHA. okay okay. christmas 07 is long gone (actually just less than a week) and now im anticipating christmas 08. hahaha. right. im nuts now. MACADAMIA NUT! yes no peanuts no hazelnuts and definitely no coconut. get it aaron!(if you ever read this lol)

year 2008. i would want to get my DISTINCTION for grade 8 theory (but i keep forgetting my chords sighhh). then again, i also want to GET MY DIPLOMA DONE ASAP. (but honestly i've been lazy to practise and now with work, no time at all except the weekly lessons that start tmr at7pm!) year 2007 i used to hate thursday! now 2008 i hate wednesdays. lol. not because of lessons but because of the HEAVY BAG. and someone tell me, how am i supp to carry it tmr when in the first paragraph i mentioned that MY SHOULDERS ARE STILL ACHING!! okay make that the second paragraph. hehex ^^;

and year 2008, please let me have a chance to fulfil my wish for 5-6 years. please make this wish comes true this year. to my fellow retards and friends (i.e yuhsiu, potential retard no.4 nicole, agnes, perhaps shuqin), please put our wish down and make it come true. hehex. and this wish isa 6-letter word which starts with T and ends with N. i know you all know it. please make it come true k. HAHAHA. anyone else bother to guess? lol T_ _ _ _ N. not difficult. no clue either, cause by then, i think kindergarten kids will know. those slightly just other than 3 year olds. lol.

yupyup i think that's all for my first post for 2008! make it a good year please. i just realize i cant say santa. sighh. so errr.... whoever, please make my 2008 a good year. hehex. x) my horoscope says it'll be. so let me trust my horoscope for ~~not~~ the first time! ^^;

im like rudolph man. =/

2007-12-31T09:46:00.000+08:00

im blogging while at work now. today's my 4th day at work and there's still nothing to do. so im blogging and talking to retard no.1 on msn now. hahaha. half-day today! poor juin though (and yea i just read your blog ^^;) alvin and the chipmunks later. hehehx. anw, this weekend was disappointing. guides gathering was cancelled. luckily i replied lyn's msg. if not i think only me and catrin will appear there. hahaha. piano lesson was pretty good. wanted to blog that day actually. about what i hated during my train ride there. we do not need noisy people to add to the discomfort of the terrible squeeze on the train. i dont get it why they fussed over whether they can alight from the train on time or not (before the door closes). it's like the train driver has eyes to see who's on the platform right. plus it's JURONG EAST mrt which means there's more time in which the door is opened. haha okay im being angsty here. i still find a lingering sound in absolute silence the most deafening yet majestic sound. no link i know. lol

ytd was ogl outing! sand sun and sea! card games and monkey game in the water. no more updates. i wasnt happy. so yup let's leave it to that.

retard no.1 finally finish her blog entry. after an hour. yay! shall go read now. last day of 2007! happy new year's eve everyone! =)

2007-12-28T22:15:00.001+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS to my fellow retard for getting employed today x) haha. although i have no idea what job she's working as, but i know where's the place. hahaha.

anw, today was frustrating. i had to retype everything of what i typed yesterday! cause the file went missing. grrrrrr. and i checked ytd very closely that i saved the file. yet it went missing. argh. so i had to spent another 2 hours to finish typing what i typed yesterday and another 1 hr to finish the rest. that's how much typing i had to do. because firstly, too many numbers and extra care has to be taken care of. second, some people just dont know how to fill forms properly so checking their forms is tough. third, documents are everywhere. and some, i cant and wont be able to recgonize what documents they are. cause, it's in a language i dont understand at all! haha. but after typing which eat about half of my lunch hour, i finally finish what i had to do. i hope they dont think i type very slowly. i just had to retype it. ack. but then the rest of the day i spent reading and errr... walking around. lol. huishan had an errand to do so i went with her. haha take it as exercise. lol. if not stoning down there in a hard to move chair is quite stony. so yup had to walk the skybridges from a building to the next. OH, my pass finally work this afternoon. haha i got stuck outside the very first door cause the security havent accessed my pass fully yet. blehhh. but after lunch it work alr! haha. no more being stuck outside. ^^;

i'll be busy these weekend! yay! tmr's the guides gathering with i dont know who (probably my batch and a few close seniors i expect + guiders!) then the ~~dreaded~~ piano lesson then sunday is ogl outing. monday is a half day! haha. but i hope recruit express will be open cause i need to get my timesheet and make sure they received my fax. hoping hard. sigh. haha.

work's been really fun. haha. we really get paid for playing games, youtubing, reading and stoning. cool xP

once again, congrats to my fellow retard no 1! and no 2 too for starting work soon! eh, you go hk buy stuff for me. hehex. get dim sum too. lalala

2007-12-27T20:32:00.000+08:00

i just received some photos yesterday of my previous batch of cookies. haha i'll wait for the choc cookies photos and oreo cheesecake photos before i post up all the photos taken during my 3 baking sessions x)

2nd day of work today! before lunch was stoning again. shida (one of the temp staff who's leaving by this week or next) didnt come today cause she's sick. btw, she's a dec baby too. and a christmas baby. haha. so yup. was stoning with huishan (this other temp staff who's same age as me. she wants to take accountancy in uni, like what im now thinking of hehex) throughout this morning. ended up reading/playing games/youtubing. lol but after lunch i had work to do! typing job which i havent quite ended what im supp to do cause there's a who;e stack of applications to be done. and some people just didnt even complete their forms. haha. and im sick of typing numbers. phone nos and ic nos. it's totally like a whole string of numbers lar. more than 10 numbers leh. sigh. but tmr morning i'll have work to do too! yay! hehex. tmr's off an hr earlier. hehex

note to self. next year piano lessons on wed 645pm. theory exam 15march. practical exam must register at exam venue itself.

2007-12-26T15:14:00.000+08:00

i decided to blog right now cause im super bored at work. there's nothing to do cause my supervisor's on leave today hahaha. so since morning i've been stoning and stoning and stoning. the other two temp staff here are stoning here with me too lol. yupyup. i hope tmr will be better. the only useful thing i've done today is download windows live messenger. yup. and im now talking online with another of the temp staff although she's just beside me hahaha. we're just too bored you see. anw, i got my own laptop here to use and the internet connection here is so much better than at home. hahaha. xP im seriously bored now. about 3 more hours to go... i've stoned around for errr about 7 hours. lol. sighhhhhhhhh *yawn* i almost forgot the year 2007 is going to end soon. yup on next monday. hahaha. im hoping this sat there will be guides gathering with my batch and the guiders! haha. then on sun with the ogls. my stoning today can help pay for my 2 days' outing. lol. im not stating pay here muahahaha. but it's enough for me. yay! earn earn earn money. im not money minded but im seriously broke. hehex. im surviving on my savings in the piggy bank which i hate to do so. yup. and now i know im talking rubbish cause im bored!!!!! yupyup. trying to feel occupied now by blogging lol. happy post christmas everyone! ohoh i can talk abt christmas! yay!!

okay on christmas eve, went to my boyboy's place for dinner. hehex. his brother is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo quiet. i think when im there he only spoke one sentence throughout a few hours. ^^; and yup i think i speak more than him. hehex. so and dinner was nice. although im supp to have 3 rounds of helpings before i get my dessert, haha no one notice ^^; dessert was a really sinful chocolatey logcake and chocolate fondue prepared by my boyboy. hehex. sinful but nice. x) anw, really thanks to boyboy's family for inviting me over there. hehex. nice dinner yummy. i wanna go back there again! not to eat but to play with kiki aka little pervert. hohoho. she's so damn cute. running around in circles hehex. ^^; but yupyup thanks boyboy!

christmas was baking sessions at my house again with my boyboy. now it's chocolate mint candies cookies. it's really yummy k. haha. and it tastes so much like my mint chocolate cookies. it's like the exact same taste. im now wondering it they actually uses the same mint chocs as i did. hahaha. photos with boyboy but the green patterns are really nice =) although hehex, it's really sinful. oops. ^^;

okay i think that's all. i better go try fax over to recruit express my posb accnt no. sighhh. why didnt i bring that time. =/

2007-12-24T00:03:00.000+08:00

okay im supp to blog abt my birthday and pre-birthday now! x) sleepover at my place. hehex. yup had our oreo cheesecake baking session. went to meet swee first at jec cause i wanna check up prices for a certain gift xP but it's really damn ex lar. so swee mentioned a similar shop at jp and since we're heading there to meet yeechian, we went over to jp first and shop around and checking the prices for that certain gift. note the price difference lar. the second shop has a larger size at a cheaper price. lol. anw i cant divulge anything here now so too bad. xP yupyup went to shop around for swee's present ^^; yea i dont know what to get for her lar. this one dont want that one dont want. xP but of course, since she forgot to take her cam, she went back home to take it first while we both met yeechian. so me and yeechian went around shopping for her gift and got her a lollipop sushion! photos still with her so i'll post it up later. yup. next was shopping for the ingredients. haha. to save money, we cut down the amount of cream cheese needed. yup. a pack of cream cheese cost 4.05. and that's after offer alr. lol. okay then blah blah blah. comes to our baking session! yeechian and swee went to crush oreos for the base while i went to mix the cream cheese with the sugar, vanilla and eggs. damn tiring to mix lar even with the electric mixer. haha. cause the cream cheese wasnt really that melted. but once adding the egg, it's like magic. everything suddenly become easier. haha. but sadly, our first crust was chao-da. cause i convert the temp too high. ^^; oh well. but when we take it out it's like so cool lar. i cant descibe it but it's just cool. haha. oh well, so we went out to get another pack of oreos again cause we needed about 16 cookies for the base only. and one pack has 14. haha. hurry go get the twin pack one. it's almost the same price or slightly cheaper than the individual pack one lar. haha. yupyup so went home and start baking the second one. crushing cookies is tough. really. haha. so yup our second one was a great success! haha. and yup, photos still with swee so next time i'll show you the oreo cheesecake.

after that was just dinner with nicole now then back home again. shuqin made us walk halfway to the mrt station lar. haha. xP and the way they cross the road is DAMN SCARY. lol. so yup. stone around and wait for shuqin and she bought donuts! yay! haha. so yup played the pig-version-heart-attack and i felt my last few hours of being a seventeen was really dumb. what a way to end it. sigh. haha. but at least i wasnt the last level pig. haha. next was i forgot alr. sigh. but yup a cake (or rather donut) cutting ceremony. lol. haha. yupyup. then send nicole down to take her cab. haha. we told her to have 999 ready on her phone first. lol. after we came up, we watched huan huan ai. but then sadly, i already watched those few episodes on youtube. blehhh haha anw, it was gift exchange time when it turned 12. or rather after 12 lar. cause i was on the phone at 12 with my boyboy. hehex ^^; and shuqin was still rushing our cards lol. then swee's bro came to fetch her. he looks so damn like her. haha. like how me and bro looks alike too x) so yupyup. after that left the 3 of us: me chian and shuqin. so we cont watching but we ended up sleeping in the end cause we're too tired. haha.

next day we woke up and watched doraemon. lol. okay but afternoon i went out with my boyboy. he spend alot on me lar. it's like hundreds. O.O say ouch for his pocket. so yup we went ice skating first. haha but before that he had to scare me lar. he said he was at my void deck but all along, he was sitting right outside my house. lol. haha. but anw ice skating yupyup. fun scary but thrilling. haha. and i hate people cutting into my path. blehhh. but luckily, that day it wasnt that crowded. and i saw minxin and michelle there too. haha. and someone whom i think was hueyhian actually. i think it's her but i dont dare to ask her. haha. so anw, boyboy dragged me in slides lar. and i always went crashing into the bars. haha. didnt fall down lar. so dont worry. after that was neoprints! haha. or neocards, nice nice. finally an english machine. lol. dinner was at billy bombers at marina square. ouch to the pocket again. haha. but their servings is huge. and their drink cup is like wow. but they had nice drinks too! ordered this drink call sophia. it's soda with peach, orange juice, raspberry and i forgot the last one. haha. oops, i drank up my friend. hehex. yupyup. present from my boyboy is damn nice. i love the shirt especially. haha. so yupyup thanks boyboy! x) got a top, skirt and accessory from him lar. haha. i feel so pampered. lol. but skirt abit too big for me. it was M size. so we went down this evening to change the size. thought it was to S size haha but XS size suits me better. lol. then went for dinner and back home cause i cant stay out too late. then just now stayed home and we both listen to my mum's stories. hahaha. my naughty brother still havent come home yet. tsk tsk.

so anw, had a really good eighteen this year. =) thanks to all those to wish me! juin, nina, cheryl, grace, laimeng, catrin, shihua, yuenyi, wanyi, angie, minlu, my fellow retards and shuqin and nicole for the baking session and stayover and for being the first one there when the clock strikes 12, my family for alot of stuff!!! and of course my boyboy who spent a bomb on me, spending the day with me, being the first one to call me at 12am etc etc etc. i love you guys =) thank you!

2007-12-23T00:45:00.000+08:00

yay! finally eighteen! haha since it's 23rd now, so happy belated birthday to my supposed twin retard no.2 and happy birthday yuenyi and wanyi!

yupyup had lots of fun since friday till now so i guess i'll blog it tmr then. *yawn* just for info, we had baking session with the retards! but i doubt we aint really retarded since we made a really nice oreo cheesecake x) then sleepover with more food (donuts!) from shuqin and nicole (who may soon be retard no.4). haha. then today's been my outing with my lovely little boyboy haha

so yupyup, blog it tmr hehex. thanks to all those who wished me! thankslist on tmr! night people x)

2007-12-19T23:37:00.000+08:00

=D happy happy. haha. these days been really fun cause my boyboy's back from japan! yay! hehex. anw on the 17th got my interview at recruit express. i did smt retarded so it's recorded at retards' blog. haha im not gonna say here. =x anw they're really efficient and my 2 consultants i think they are like xin you lin xi lar. call me at the same time. offer my 2 diff jobs at the same time too. but talking abt that, i've accepted one alr. which means im employed!! x) yay! working right after christmas. haha. i'll get my christmas holidays too! my first birthday gift =) lalala.

ytd was golden compass with boyboy. it isnt like what weiquan and haikal says lar. i still think at least there's a proper ending to the first part of the trilogy. then i find it quite nice. not too bad. but then after watching and thinking of it back again, i have to admit that it isnt that interesting to other movies i've watched. oh well. hehex. who cares. at least i get to go out with my boyboy x)

and today it's baking with my boyboy! yay! gingerbread man cookies. haha. yummy. and we make a mess in the kitchen. oops. but then, it's common sight whenever i bake. haha. i'll mess up the kitchen with the flour. ^^; yup. cookies taste nice!! and the recipe says we can make 3 dozens of 4-inches cookies. haha. cause our cookie cutter is damn small, so we make about 80 cookies in total. so that's like more than 1/2 of the stated quantity. haha. retards! i'll treat you all to the cookies when we come for sleepover k =) yay! photos of the cookies! we made gingerbread men and women. hahaha.

2007-12-16T22:04:00.000+08:00

yesterday was glam photos. today is unglam photos. yupyup. i promised a few that i'll post the retards' photos up. evidence to show that we're really retarded. and how we're born as the retards. hahaha. real story on retards' blog. hehex. so yup, all photos are for fun, laughter, peace and joy. hehex. happy holidays everyone! photos are all for a good laugh. yup, im allowing you all to laugh at me... cause i was laughing at myself too. haha. 9 more days to christmas!

retard no.1

retard no.2
(im retarded so i dont know what she's doing)

retard no.3 with retard no.1

(umbrella under shelter is retarded enough)

our FIRST shot. and it was a great success! subsequently, we kinda failed. haha

the VERY photo that produces the retards. we looked spastic. =S

second successful shot. but people, doesnt retard no.1 reminds you of a frog? HAHAHA

our second really spastic photo of the retards. i looked like im conducting something. lol

the process of a jump. the landing, the in-the-air, and on the top. x)

our final shot. retard no.1 looks like she's going for a fight. haha. she reminds me of tmnt. another turtle. lolx. notice something weird/funny/out of the picture btw?

relieve our childhood times!

retard no.1

retard no.2

retard no.3

okay that's all folks. hope you all have a great laugh at us. lol

2007-12-15T20:55:00.000+08:00

i just realized i havent upload my prom photos into class shutterfly yet. i'll do it next time. for the time being, let's keep haikal's mouth shut. hehex. photos in random mode. haha

my FAVOURITE photo. we look good right. hehehex x)

my 2nd fav photo =)

i wonder who took this photo. haha

wenhao,me and half of haikal. lol

another of my buddy - cat!

xianyong,me,zhirui

the ki people (except me i know)

(haikal,shaun!,me,alex)

me with the hot lyn. (psst. she wore bareback that night. hahaha)

maybe i can do a comparison photo. sec 4 and now. hahaha

tiff,mummy rachel and me!

the photo i've been waiting for! (sorry if my legs has been unglam lol)

suyi,me,shermin!

sumin,annarine,me

me,juin,cheryl

me,xiaoxian,elaine,sumin,yuquan,jen,shihua

weiquan,qingsheng,me,tingyang,aaron

me and my best buddy yiyi!

my dear childhood friend siya!

(i think the last time we took a pic tgt was in p6 =/)

my dear piano people when we finally found each other hehex

(schezn,xinyu,mich,me,angie)

the sc girls!

(dot,sasha,yuehhsin,mel,sam,cat,jo,me)

retard no.1 and retard. no.3!

alright! that's all for now! my class photo is quite blur so didnt post it up. but most of the people are alr shown. haha. so no diff.

btw, the retards' blog is up! just go links. hehex. xD

2007-12-14T20:09:00.000+08:00

i forgot to post this ytd. haha i finally found out who's the prom queen of sa and rj and vj ytd! all from sc x) wheeee on top of nj's haha. and from yirong's blog, acsi's prom queen from sc too. but of course, besides nellie (sa - that choir girl), viola (rj) and sam (nj), most importantly, it's my dear dear cheryl (vj). lalala x) her photos at facebook, so said retard no.2.

anw retard no.3 is really happy today. as they always say things comes in three, good happenings came thrice today for me! first was the morning call that i received. finally one agent replied to my mails. x) yup and im down for interview this monday. second was the second agent was the same company too. and im down for interview this monday as well, after the first, cause both their offices are just 9 floors apart in the same tower. hahaha. third good news was that the second agent had already spotted one possible job for me at clarke quay area. x) though it isnt really confirmed yet but at least it's a good beginning. =) i just really need money to be able to go out. but also, having to work you might say i cant go out or spend time with you but im still available in the evenings and weekends. hope you would understand. =/

retard no.3 got new nail polish. and i love my green. wait till shuqin sees it.. haha go green! lol

2 more days before my darling's back x)

2007-12-13T20:21:00.000+08:00

my name is retard no 3 now. and i went out with my two friends ytd, retard no.1 and retard no.2. we were supposed to be out cycling at east coast but the weather hates us. so it rained. in the end, we went for this one-life exhibition. it is about aids. and i got a negative chop on my right hand. while the other two retards got a positive chops. retard no.2's mp3 was hay-wired. lost batt twice. haha. i think the volunteers there are laughing at her. muahaha. then the three retards head to east coast in the end because the rain seems to stop. took a long time there and almost got lost. ended up at the westest side of east coast and we walked all the way to the middle side where macs is. in between, stone at a shelter and take retarded photos. the three retarded camwhores. lol. retard no.2 refuses to send retard no.1 and retard no.3 the photos. she's retarded. blehhh. haha. but dont worry people, retard no.3 will strangle her until she send retard no.3 photos to share and see how retarded we are. lol

anw, retard no.3 needs a job! where are my replies? sent 7 emails. 0 replies. ahhh. i shall wait and find more. who's willing to employ retard no.3? but dont worry, she's not as retarded as retard no.2. hahaha.

i cant believe it's just 9 more days. stayover at retard no.2's place. and retard no.1 is our events manager. hehex. the three retards unite!! lol

i miss my darling alot. sighh. and no haikal, you dont miss him. haha

2007-12-11T21:40:00.000+08:00

hello people! okay time for me to update. this place is dead. and things have been pretty good and fun ever since the last time i blogged. but actually it's up till the 7th. the rest of the days till now, i've been lazy or the internet connection been bad so i cldnt update. hehex. oh well, here's my entry xP

2nd dec. out with nicole, yeechian, swee, yu hsiu and agnes, before the latter two fly. poor nicole waited for about 1 hr 15 mins for swee. hahaha. so anw, went yeechian's hse (like finally) for board games and card games. we wanna save money. hehex. yup so played the level pigs thingy. i won in the end with being a level 4 pig x) lolx. then monopoly which i think im jinxed but lucky at the same time. my "emerald hill" estate made agnes a bankrupt and im earning based on that estate rather than getting my salary after each round. cause i always ended up at paying income taxes of 2000 for at least 5 consecutive times after i ended my round. irritating. haha. oh btw, met up with zaneta too. (like finally she agreed to meet us) =x

3rd dec. arabian night! haha. i thought it'll be worse than sec 4's cause im sitting in a table which i only know a handful. number of people which i can really count in one hand. but still, it turned out fabulous. not the food of course. ate really little. went around taking photos. hahaha. but i hate my fat arm. yea, notice it carefully and it's fat. actually they arent fat tissues. hehex. just err. muscles from all the piano playing. yea i have muscles man. hahaha. anw, pity i didnt take photos with some people and i regretted it. people like ryan, jacq! dear me. but still, wonderfu night. at least i got my photo with shermin and suyi! x)

4th dec. dinner with piano people at thai express. i cld have went back to swissotel again and find nicole and yu hsiu. haha. been talking alot and we stayed there for hours. haha. mr seow is now probably climbing some deadly mountain in africa. scary =/ then yea, basically it's just catching up with the rest. sadly chuling had family issues so she cldnt join us. if not, it'll be finally the first and ever full gathering of the seniors. and i saw joy on my way there too! haha. she always comment that 'i've grown skinnier'. always. and i think it's quite dumb. i only noticed her on the same train like more than 5 stations later when she board it at clementi. haha. that's how slow we are.

5-7th dec. class chalet. i think haikal did a perfect elaboration of the happenings so just refer to his. me lazy blog again. hahaha

and so from the 8th till now, i've been stuck at home reading harry potter. and i finally finished it in 3 days! lalala. went to library today to return my books and get more books x) tmr will be better.

and people please help me find a job soon. i need a job desperately. being broke and lazing around at home with one lucky boyboy in japan. misses him so much. sigh. haha. i need a job! part time for now is okay. i just need money more. xP

okay i think that's it for now. i'll try to blog abt tmr's outing with chian and swee, hmm tmr.! haha okay im off.

come back quick you lucky boy. haha. miss you=/

2007-12-01T15:31:00.000+08:00

i didnt realize it was december today until i heard the 12pm bell while reading the newspapers. hahaha. wheeeee. christmas is coming x) i've been singing to myself christmas songs like rudolf the red-nosed reindeer. but i knew only two lines to it. =/ so i just hummed the melody. haha. if christmas is coming, something must be coming too. wheeeee xD

i last left my blog till talking abt hmmmm i cant rmb. haha. but i know where i should start. so right bbq on monday! met them at bukit timah food centre for a supposedly lunch but nobody seems to be eating. and everyone was late. haha. nicole as usual looked like an auntie with her carrying a bag containing skewers. xP and we now know swee needs a super huge umbrella. cause even though me and yeechian shared my small umbrella, we didnt really get that wet, much less yuhsiu using my umbrella alone. and swee, who has a much bigger umbrella than mine, and she used it alone, she got drenched totally. see the irony. hahaha anw, then we went shopping for food then off to agnes house where we get to enjoy the aircon while waiting for shuqin! i think no one can beat us in sustaining the charcoal fire. we took a whole 5 hours to do that, and in between is on and off fire, which still at least allow us to cook some food. oh btw, s14 beware, i'll eat up alot of satay during class bbq. hehex. satays are nice bbq food. apart from the lovely marshmallows x)

tues had my dental appt early in the morning and i'll need to get a new retainer which cost like 200! ouch. and it's for the lower row of teeth only. after that was shopping and enchanted! hehex x) in between went crashing shaun's band rehearsal. hahaha. it's really pretty good =) i love chriselle's voice for one particular song x) then at night return home early just to rushed out my cv. sigh. at least it's sent that night and now i just need to wait for job offers x)

wed and thurs was stuck at home reading. nothing much. really quite boring but i guess i need the rest after being out daily

fri was out shopping with shaun again! wheeee haha and i finally got my heels x) so everything abt prom that need to be settled is done. =)

i think im gonna fall sick soon. or i think i am already sick. been sneezing so frequently now. ah-chooooooo =x

2007-11-24T23:09:00.000+08:00

been hearing all kinds of talks with quite a few people, and i must say that life's pretty unpredictable and it's really confusing. me myself is confused abt something. but then at least im much better than others. some people/things are messed up. perhaps what mummy's friend's advice holds true. now i'll try to put a smile on my face and try to be less emo. haha. and i'll gossip less perhaps. oh well. do no evil. but yea, if i really blow up, that means some people are threading on my toes pretty hard. and up till now, perhaps only one very person has done that. (and i know when people talked abt someone on their blogs, sometimes they will go thinking if it's me. but dont worry my readers, the person im talking about hardly read blogs. that is to say, it's not you. haha. but it's pretty to guess who anw)

anw, enough of the above. i just went shopping again x) haha. after drawing stuff at xinyu's house this morning. and yes, dont think i do not know how to draw. i do have an artistic talent in drawing. it's just that i never really draw much. xP anw, yupyup shopping for heels. and i found a pretty nice one but sadly i didnt buy it. cause there are some good and bad points abt it. firstly, the good stuff,
1) it's pretty cheap for a charles and keith heels at only 25.50 after discount.
2) it's a unique design.
3) it's damn comfortable x).
4) i like the material. velvet. hehex makes it all so classy.
but this brings to the bad points.
1) because it's so classy, it's hard to match it with casual wear. so i probably wont get to wear it often.
2) it's like 3 inches high?! it's not like i cant totally walk in them. i still do, but shaun commented that the stilettos are shaking when i was just standing straight. -.- and yea, it's pretty too high for me i guess.

so right now, im making a confusing decision. should i or should i not? after all, i can always practised walking in 3-inches tall heels and bad point no.2 can be solved pretty easily. help me decide people! please please please give comments. it's so hard a decision. oh and darn, i should have taken a photo of it at least. haha. =x

other random stuff. i just gotta blog abt my conversation with my brother over msn ytd. it's pretty hilarious and rare of an occasion since he was like so pretty good to me ytd. first he promised to help me borrow a bag from his girl friend. (not girlfriend arh. there's a diff xP) and he said if it doesnt match my dress at all, he'll BRING me to shopping. mark this. first time he ever said that. he doesnt ever allow me to go for movies with him at all. and then he'll PAY for it as well. xD and well, if you think that makes a really good brother to have... think twice.

cause he revealed the reason why he'll bring me to shopping it's because he just want to make sure i dont buy a super ex bag for myself. -.-

hahaha. but still my brother is a nice brother. cause he still offered to pay alot of things for me x) although he doesnt bring me to shopping at all. haha. now, i shall be nice and hope that he doesnt mess up any more papers. xP nah kidding. im on the search for his birthday gift, using MY money ;). shhhhh =x

2007-11-23T20:25:00.000+08:00

been out for almost every day since tues and it feels great although it might get tiring sometimes. oh well.. i would still prefer this to staying home all day. and it's the first in 4 days i had a homecooked dinner. haha. but dinner today was salty and sourish cause me and my mummy were trying out this plum flavoured rice seasoning we bought yesterday at a japanese supermarket. but overall it's still pretty nice.

oh anw anw, i got a nice new pillow x) cause my previous pillow is like so flat. blehhh. and i dont know why my mum is starting to have second thoughts on my prom dress. sigh. =x

bee movie with renuka today! haha. we're supp to meet at plaza singapura today but we ended up at jurong point instead. cause she had to change an item at toy'r'us at jp and so i met her there but we realized jp has a cinema too! so we just stayed at jp. bee movie was quite nice actually. and some parts are really funny. they got bee gandhi, bee columbus, and bee larry king. haha. and how bees actually direct a plane landing. there's lots of funny parts lar. and goodie, more movies coming up soon x)

after the movie, we just sat and talked for quite long. but we had a stupid idea to go into shoe shops to pretend trying out the shoes but in fact, we just wanna sit and rest our legs. until we realized a better way is to get into a fast food restaurant and sit there for all we want. blehhh =x

2007-11-21T22:30:00.000+08:00

A's over!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee x) and im not going to bother abt some careless mistakes i did for physics paper 1. sigh. but it feels so good to be out for 2 days straight. and it's going to last until 26th. MUAHAHAHA X) at least i know i wont be a bored kid. lalala

library, sushi buffet and stardust ytd! at least with the books i'll be more occupied x) yay! movie was great. and i keep thinking abt it though =x plus, i almost really feel like falling asleep before it. first row is bad too. neck ache. ouch. haha

shopping today too! and i got my prom dress x) wheeeeee. saw lots of people around lar. saw yichiew, jen, shihua, yuquan and sumin at suntec. haha. and everyone's rushing to get their prom dresses. you hear people from other jcs everywhere looking for prom stuff. haha.

my leg aches now from all those shopping. but im still a happy kid!! x) bbq on monday wheeeeee x)

2007-11-17T17:00:00.001+08:00

im bored. =x

2007-11-16T21:21:00.000+08:00

HELLO!! it's the weekend and soon, As would be over. wheeeeeeeeeeeee. i should be proud of myself to be able to keep a hiatus for soooo long. *clears cobwebs*

okie, this season has been ermm.. not nice. yea i shall keep that. think whatever you wish. of course studying whole day is indeed not nice. hehex. but new discoveries too! national geographic and discovery channels have really nice shows. haha. and they accompanied through my boring afternoons. x)

today is the 16th which means 4 more days. muahahaha x) after that is fun fun fun. and im fully booked till 23rd for now. ehhh.. that means 4 days only. ^^; but better than nothing. hopefully 24th i'll be out too.

before i forget, i shld set some targets for myself these hols until next july. that's kinda far but cause i just rmbed, while everyone can play all they want after As, i realized i still have tons of music to study T.T it's a bit too early though but my one year series of theory paper, i've been doing it for nearly a year, when you can finish in a month. ^^; and that one year paper was ermm 1999 paper. haha. so i still have at least 4-5 years of papers to do within 3 months. then i still have like stacks of history notes to study. time to throw away chem, econs, maths stuff away first and fill them with music. and this's part of the music exams. shall start finding a job during dec. hehex. then lots of stuff to do too! bake and read! yupyup library's the place. x)

i want my gingerbread done. *hint hint*

1month6days xP

2007-10-10T19:26:00.001+08:00

okay despite the forced hiatus. i gotta blogged abt this anyway.

i cooked for the first time yesterday x) and it was a proper meal. even though it meant cutting the ingredients up and chucking them into the oven. haha. at least i CAN cook. and it turn out well in the end as well.

okay so anyway, mug hard people. dont fall sick like our prelims period! =x this blog will be back after As. i cant wait. at least i'll be free from my ~~grounded~~ status now =(

please do tag often!! no blog entries doesnt equate to a completely dead blog! (at least i still can tag xP)

go away As. i hate you =x

2007-09-30T22:07:00.000+08:00

even though i find it rude and unelegant and whatever you think, i want to scream vulgarities at the state of my life now.

im an emo kid on the new block.
im someone whom almost eveyone put the blame on me.
im someone who's always seem to be at fault.
im someone with an inferior mindset.
im someone who totally lack confidence in herself inside.
im someone who thinks that the world can be a better place without her existence.
im someone with the serious attitude problem.
im someone who keeps things in herself.
im someone who is struggling so hard within herself.
im just someone who shouldnt be here.

if i have the chance, i might consider living on my own.

2007-09-23T21:34:00.000+08:00

okay, i know im slow but prelims is over (for 3 days)! haha. and im screwed for it. oh well, shant think of it. there's one more day to enjoy myself first before another round and another two months of studying like mad again =x

these days have been bored though. =x except friday of course x) sushi buffet and pool and our usual stoning. muaha xP and these two days i've been naughty though. cause i've dl lots of new songs. ^^;

anw, with some harmless random thoughts. and i said harmless cause most of my random thoughts are quite destructive to the inner mind =x okay so all those bloggers who happen to read this. have you ever feel like blogging more often when you indicate a hiatus on your blog? haha. cause i feel like that all the time. when i didnt say im going for a hiatus, i wont feel like blogging. then when i say hiatus, the more i felt like blogging. which kinda err. contradicts =x that's why my hiatus always seem shorter than my non-hiatus period. LOL please enlighten me k. haha

and another harmless random thought during my shower today. and i swear it's the randomest of the random. so is it true that chinese physician likes to laugh at their patients? haha. =x i only have two examples right now. and i know muggers will tell me it's not a good approximation cause n is not large. -.- oh well..

to end off, i shall blog this lovely lyrics of the new duet i just dl. x)

白茫茫的星光
洒在长长路上
想念的冰凉
你知道吗
你浅浅的微笑
深似海的眼光
都能掀起我
滔天的巨浪

你相信吗
这是命吗
这次我们放弃抵抗
哪怕拥抱在身上
画下深深的伤

只要看你一眼一瞬间
哪怕是最后画面
我的世界
因为爱过而完美
谁都不该离太远
只要看你一眼一瞬间
足够我熬过千年
我不后悔
爱若让末日提前
我们要一起好好迎接那句点

如果相爱是错
错过又算什么
这一次我们
宁死不放手
往彼此的心里跳
跳过天荒地老

-张惠妹；萧敬腾 <一眼瞬间>

2007-09-16T20:53:00.000+08:00

... and i thought the problem's resolved

... but in actual fact, im still stuck in the middle.

2007-09-11T21:22:00.000+08:00

dinner was less than a quarter of white bread.

nope im not anorexic, it's just that i've no appetite. and it sucks to be in this state, being mentally, emotionally and physically drained. i wasted about 2 hours of study in the toilet, vomitting continuously. then there's other matters to worry about to.

i hope im still able to take my maths tomorrow. let's pray the medicine helps =/

2007-09-08T15:56:00.000+08:00

i shall be evil once - so help me instead of helping nicole now! xP i dont wanna go into the exam hall (or classroom) with a giddy spell and a fever. =/ i HAVE to recover by tmr T.T luckily it subside abit. last night it records a high 39.1 deg C. and this morning it was 37.0 deg C! although it shoot up again in the noon =x

i've some random thoughts again. i think i have a phobia of doing my papers =x that means, if i dont do well for prelims, i'll continue to bring my fear in for As. =x

and, i now have a changing mind on whether to take psychology in uni now. i flipped through the classified and there's like no advertisements for graduates with a degree in psychology. more of it was accountancy. so something in my heart is now telling me to rethink of my choices. then, there's a 3rd one my mum suggests - marketing and communication. so i have totally no idea what now. hehex. but i shall leave it to months later x) all i know is that medicine and engineering are out x) lalala

2007-09-05T22:13:00.000+08:00

help nicole!! poor girl. having not being able to write properly because of her left hand is abit ermmm.. "stuck", as termed in her own words. haha. and she's a left hander. and she got only 4 days to recover! =/ take care of your hand k!

these past 2 nights, my shoe cabinet has became a bed for this big fat cat whose yellow eyes is always staring at me -.- and nope im not rearing a cat. it only appeared at night to sleep on my shoe cabinet cause as what my parents said, "it's a safe haven for it to spend the night". LOL and i havent complained that this cat scared me off numerous times alr. the most recent one being on mon night when i returned home to find it staring at me like im taking his territory away. LOL