September 30, 2007
even though i find it rude and unelegant and whatever you think, i want to scream vulgarities at the state of my life now.
im an emo kid on the new block.
im someone whom almost eveyone put the blame on me.
im someone who's always seem to be at fault.
im someone with an inferior mindset.
im someone who totally lack confidence in herself inside.
im someone who thinks that the world can be a better place without her existence.
im someone with the serious attitude problem.
im someone who keeps things in herself.
im someone who is struggling so hard within herself.
im just someone who shouldnt be here.
if i have the chance, i might consider living on my own.
Y10:07 PM
September 23, 2007
okay, i know im slow but prelims is over (for 3 days)! haha. and im screwed for it. oh well, shant think of it. there's one more day to enjoy myself first before another round and another two months of studying like mad again =x
these days have been bored though. =x except friday of course x) sushi buffet and pool and our usual stoning. muaha xP and these two days i've been naughty though. cause i've dl lots of new songs. ^^;
anw, with some harmless random thoughts. and i said harmless cause most of my random thoughts are quite destructive to the inner mind =x okay so all those bloggers who happen to read this. have you ever feel like blogging more often when you indicate a hiatus on your blog? haha. cause i feel like that all the time. when i didnt say im going for a hiatus, i wont feel like blogging. then when i say hiatus, the more i felt like blogging. which kinda err. contradicts =x that's why my hiatus always seem shorter than my non-hiatus period. LOL please enlighten me k. haha
and another harmless random thought during my shower today. and i swear it's the randomest of the random. so is it true that chinese physician likes to laugh at their patients? haha. =x i only have two examples right now. and i know muggers will tell me it's not a good approximation cause n is not large. -.- oh well..
to end off, i shall blog this lovely lyrics of the new duet i just dl. x)
白茫茫的星光洒在长长路上想念的冰凉你知道吗你浅浅的微笑深似海的眼光都能掀起我滔天的巨浪你相信吗这是命吗这次我们放弃抵抗哪怕拥抱在身上画下深深的伤只要看你一眼一瞬间哪怕是最后画面我的世界因为爱过而完美谁都不该离太远只要看你一眼一瞬间足够我熬过千年我不后悔爱若让末日提前我们要一起好好迎接那句点如果相爱是错错过又算什么这一次我们宁死不放手往彼此的心里跳跳过天荒地老-张惠妹； 萧敬腾 <一眼瞬间>
Y9:34 PM
September 16, 2007
... and i thought the problem's resolved
... but in actual fact, im still stuck in the middle.
Y8:53 PM
September 11, 2007
dinner was less than a quarter of white bread.
nope im not anorexic, it's just that i've no appetite. and it sucks to be in this state, being mentally, emotionally and physically drained. i wasted about 2 hours of study in the toilet, vomitting continuously. then there's other matters to worry about to.
i hope im still able to take my maths tomorrow. let's pray the medicine helps =/
Y9:22 PM
September 8, 2007
i shall be evil once - so help me instead of helping nicole now! xP i dont wanna go into the exam hall (or classroom) with a giddy spell and a fever. =/ i HAVE to recover by tmr T.T luckily it subside abit. last night it records a high 39.1 deg C. and this morning it was 37.0 deg C! although it shoot up again in the noon =x
i've some random thoughts again. i think i have a phobia of doing my papers =x that means, if i dont do well for prelims, i'll continue to bring my fear in for As. =x
and, i now have a changing mind on whether to take psychology in uni now. i flipped through the classified and there's like no advertisements for graduates with a degree in psychology. more of it was accountancy. so something in my heart is now telling me to rethink of my choices. then, there's a 3rd one my mum suggests - marketing and communication. so i have totally no idea what now. hehex. but i shall leave it to months later x) all i know is that medicine and engineering are out x) lalala
Y3:56 PM
September 5, 2007
help nicole!! poor girl. having not being able to write properly because of her left hand is abit ermmm.. "stuck", as termed in her own words. haha. and she's a left hander. and she got only 4 days to recover! =/ take care of your hand k!
these past 2 nights, my shoe cabinet has became a bed for this big fat cat whose yellow eyes is always staring at me -.- and nope im not rearing a cat. it only appeared at night to sleep on my shoe cabinet cause as what my parents said, "it's a safe haven for it to spend the night". LOL and i havent complained that this cat scared me off numerous times alr. the most recent one being on mon night when i returned home to find it staring at me like im taking his territory away. LOL
Y10:13 PM
September 3, 2007
ahh finally. stupid blogger gave me so much problems in template thingy. at least now is settled x) hahaha swee! you wont be the first to tag xP
today was physics day with a bit of maths cause renuka was asking me twice in a day over the phone. at least after tmr when i complete prelim 06 paper 3. im pretty done with physics =) then the funny part today was the juggling of two phone calls cause i have to answer two calls at the SAME time. and they both rang at the SAME time. o.O hahaha. sorry eh.. gotta shout over the phone and make your ears pain ^^;
watched hairspray just now and i just got home =) nice movie. the sleek dances and the damn nice songs x) hahaha. amanda bynes is damn hot. ^^;
okie enough talking, i gotta go shower
Y10:40 PM
September 2, 2007
okay. new blog. new start. this is kinda random actually. blehhh. anw, fyi, i didnt close down my previous blog. it's just now private and for me to read and rant only. cause i realized, sometimes, i wanted to rant and find an outlet to vent my anger. but, by posting them, i dont want everyone to know abt it too. of course there's still my small lil diary stuck somewhere in my room, but one thing, im lazy to write, second thing, it's filled up and i dont bothered to get another book. hahaha. okay enough crap above. =x
friday was teachers' day celebrations. okay im slow to update it. i havent really blogged for about half a month or so. but im not gonna talk abt nj's celebs cause it's SO boring. so i shall talked abt sc's one. in fact, most details are at sam ng's blog. go check there if you want to read. basically, just one sentence: the teachers' performance is just HILARIOUS and FABULOUS. x) a pity ms goh didnt perform!! cause she laments she got no talent. hahaha. oh anw, belle tan actually SANG in front of the whole sch. amazing. cause we didnt know she can sing erm.. quite well. i miss ms heng actually. =x that shows that i dont really like the new principal whom i just saw that day. but, the principal is still so much nicer than the vp. =x
then study session with swee they all =) it's so unproductive. but nonetheless fun. =) and because of it, i missed class outing, though i dont particularly regret not going. =/
i realized all my blog addresses are emo. too bad. im an emo kid. lalala. but then again, im not really that emo. im just emo these two years. ok crap again =x suddenly i dont know what else to blog. hahaha.
i will make this a new start. =)
Y9:31 PM
